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Seasons of Faith	By : norwalker Category: -Buffy the Vampire Slayer > FemmeSlash - Female/Female > Buffy/Faith Views: 4354 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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Seasons of faith

Author: Norwalker
A story in 23 chapters
Summary: Sequel to " Summer of faith ", carries on the story after Season 3. Buffy goes to college, how will that change her and Faith's relationship. Takes the story up to the end of season 5
Rating/ Category: NC-17 for one chapter, mostly R
Spoilers: Mostly season 5, some of 4, but I changed a lot (really not big fan of Initiative scenario)
Time Line: Seasons 4 and 5
Disclaimer: Joss Whedon , Mutant Enemy and Fox own them.
Email: norwalker@earthlink.net
Feedback: Sure
Warnings: Character Death. Violence, strong language, adult themes. Typical stuff. Long story dealing with the relationships of the slayers. While there are sexual scenes in the story, they're not on every page. So, lots of story, not so lots of sex. Don't say I didn't warn you.
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Seasons of faith
Chapter 1

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“But, Faith. I gotta take care of you” Buffy says, her voice plaintive
“C’mon, B. I’m great. I’m 5 by 5. I’m near healed… only gotta little limp where my leg was busted. No big.” Faith says, a little exasperated.

What does she think, anyway? I some kinda gimp? I mean, ok, I was busted up pretty good, and in a coma for awhile. But that’s over, and I’m near full strength. But she’s actin’ like I’m still all messed up. Playing nursemaid to me and all. Don’t get me wrong… I love the attention. And a cuter nurse you couldn’t ask for. But she’s like all super- protective now. She won’t let me patrol. She just kinda watches over me like I’m some kinda breakable doll or somethin. It’s makin me nuts! Geeze. I mean, I love she’s so concerned. But now I feel like some kinda invalid or somethin. God, I nearly had to tackle her to get her to make love to me after I recovered from the coma. She acted like if she did anything, she’d break me into bitty little bits. Fat chance of that, B. Bomb couldn’t do me in. Think some little blonde is gonna do it?( ok, she can do me in…hee, hee… but not the way she’s thinkin’. God she was hot that first night! whooo hooo!)
She thinks I don’t know, but I know what the real thing is. It’s not poor broken Faith, all busted up and needing TLC. Uh uh. She must think I’m kinda a dope, ya know what I mean? Ok, not saying she’s not caring about me. What I mean is, she’s ducking the real issue. She doesn’t want to think about it, but she has to. She’s using me and my injuries to get outta it, but I’m not gonna let her. It’s too important
“Ok, B. cut the crap. We both know what’s really goin’ on here” Faith says
“It’s not crap” Buffy says, defensive. “ You nearly died on me. I wanna make sure that doesn’t happen again. And despite what you say, Faith, you’re still hurting. So you cut the crap!”
“ I gotta little limp. It doesn’t even slow me down. I ache sometimes after fighting a lot of vamps. So? Geeze, I’ve seen you come home all bruised and cut and achy. So that’s no excuse. No, me being hurt aint the issue at all. So, I’m saying it again. Cut the crap, B.”
Buffy turns away. She says, over her shoulder “ I don’t know what you mean”
“Yeah, sure B. You got no idea, right?” I say, mocking her a little.
“I don’t!” Buffy huffs a little.
“ One word B. … College” I say. Hah. Let her get outta that one.
“ That’s just stupid, Faith. That’s not it at all” Buffy says, but doesn’t turn around to look at Faith.
“No? it’s not huh? How come I see all these acceptance letters around here…what? Northwestern, University of Michigan, Penn State, UC Sunnydale … but I don’t see no responses? How come, B?”
“’Cause, stupid” Buffy says quietly, “ I couldn’t think of that stuff while you were in a coma”
That’s so unfair, B. Reminding me you’re the best thing that ever happened to me. So unfair!
Faith walks up to Buffy, and puts her arms around Buffy’s waist. She leans into Buffy, and whispers into her ear from behind her “ But, baby, I’m not in a coma no more. I’m all good now. You gotta go to college, honey. You’re too smart not to go. Red told me you scored real high on the S.A.T. tests. So… why aren’t you making plans already?”
Buffy turns in Faith’s arms, and puts her arms on Faith’s shoulders.
“Baby, I’m the slayer. I have a duty, a calling. I can’t just up and leave here. Not with the Hellmouth and all. What if something happens?”
“B? I’m a slayer, too, ya know. If anything happens, don’t you think I could handle it?” Faith said. God, it’s hard to think when she’s in my arms and sooo damned close.
“But, honey, I thought you’d …well… if I went away, you’d go with” Buffy said, leaning in closer. Oh, god, stop it B. This is sooo hard.
“And where would I be living, B? Last time I heard, Dorms are for students only” Faith said. Gulp…her lips are like inches away… she knows she’s got me all flustered. Damn her.
“Well” Buffy said, placing her hand on my neck.., and rubbing it up and down. Not fair! NOT FAIR!!! “ I don’t have to live on campus. We could get an apartment, and well…” Buffy giggles, and then leans in and licks Faith’s neck. OH SHIT B!!!
Faith breaks the embrace. God that’s … too hot.
“ B, this is getting nowhere. Ok, We…we both can’t leave. But that doesn’t mean you can’t go to college. I can stay here and watch the Hellmouth, you know.” I walk far away from her… and her sexy clutches.
“No way, Faith. I nearly lost you. Think I’m gonna just go away to college now? With you so far away? Get over that idea, girlfriend. Not happening. So not happening!” Buffy says, getting a little irritated.
“But, Buffy. This is your future. You owe it to yourself to ….” Faith starts.
“No…no , no , no! I’m not going away and leaving you behind. That’s final, no discussion!” Buffy puts her foot down. Faith chuckles to herself. It’s so cute when she does that.
“ Ok, ok B.” Faith concedes. “ No going away” Gee… like I hate that idea. Heh. “But, there is still UC Sunnydale. That’s close. Why not go there? Ok, not as high-status as say Northwestern, but you’d still get a decent education. And be close to home” HAH! Gotcha this time B. No way you can argue that one. I win, you lose, nyah, nyah.
Suddenly, Faith finds a pair of arms encircling her waist, and a certain blonde slayer pressed up tight against her back. Ah, shit. She knows what this does to me. Then there are soft lips kissing her neck. No, no, no B. No way no fair …sigh… feels sooo nice…NO!
“Stop it B, right NOW!” Faith gasps out, and breaks away, again.
Buffy smiles, and starts to approach Faith.
“ Buffy no wanna talk about mean old college. Buffy wanna play” She uses her little sexy girl voice. Damn… she knows that makes my knees turn to Jell-O.
“NO! Stop it B. I’m NOT kidding here!” Faith growls at her.
Buffy gets a hurt look on her face. It’s quickly replaced by embarrassment, then her face goes red… and it’s not a blush.
“Fine. Great. Never mind. Sorry I bothered you” She says, and turns and huffs out of the room.
Aw, crap!
Faith quickly follows B out of the room
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Faith finds Buffy on the back porch.
When she approaches her, Buffy shrugs her off. Faith stands, trying to think of what to say next. She finally just sighs.
“B, honey, baby…I’m sorry. You know I love you” Faith says softly, trying to get closer to Buffy.
“ No you don’t,” Buffy growls at her. “ You don’t care about me at all”
“Yes, I do, baby. I love you to little itty bitty pieces. I just want you to be your best, is all. I know you can do it. You’re smart, real smart, even if you pretend you’re not. And I know you’re the bravest, sexiest woman ever. I guess I’m just stupid, B. I don’t understand why you don’t want to do this”
They sit silently for a bit. Finally, Faith gets up to go.
“ Well, B. I can’t make you talk to me. I wish you would though. I’d do anything to help you. You know that, right?” Faith asks. Buffy nods, but still doesn’t say anything. Faith sighs.
“Ok, well... I’m goin’ for a walk. I’ll be back later, B. I hope you think about it and decide to talk to me about it”
Faith leaves Buffy to her thoughts.
Buffy is scared. She is so afraid, she can’t even talk about it. After nearly losing Faith, she saw the writing on the wall. One day, one of them is not going to be so lucky. One of them is gonna die…permanently. Then…what? The other carries on? Grieves? Tries to get along with life? For what? Cause it’s a fact…slayers mostly don’t live past 25…and never heard of one making it to 30. So, why waste time going to college, anyway? So I can learn something I’ll never use? Yeah. That’s a great idea. Waste all that time… the time you could be living, studying about history or stuff. Stupid. It’s plain stupid.
Now she thinks I’m being over protective of her. But if she thinks she’s gonna pull a stunt like she did again, she’s nuts. Doesn’t she have any idea how much I love her? Doesn’t she know it nearly killed me too when I thought she was dead? God, having to watch her in that coma, thinking she may never wake up? Grrr. If I weren’t so happy she is alive, I could kill her myself, doing that to me. Well, she can bet that sweet ass of hers that I’m not going to stand by and watch her die. No way, no how. Get over that idea, real quick Faithy dear.
Don’t you get it Faith? Don’t you understand? All I want is to be with you, be near you, for however much time we have left. Wasting time with college, or anything else, just makes my skin crawl. All I want is you, you, YOU! So, stop pushing it, Faith. Please. Just let me be with you, love you, ‘til the curtain goes down. ‘K?
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Faith is walking fast, muttering to herself.
God, B, how can you be so damned stubborn, anyway?
Don’t ya know I’m just trying to help? I’m not trying to hurt you. I love you so much it hurts, all the time.. Damn. Do you think I want you far away from me? God, I miss you when you’re not in the room for 5 minutes. When I’m working I want to take out the picture I carry of you and just look at you like forever.
But baby, I can’t let you slide. Not on this. You’re just too good, too smart to limit yourself. I know that. I see you. You’re bright, clever… you think on your feet. It would be a waste if you don’t go for it. Do the college thing. When I heard how well you did, how smart you really are, I was so proud I coulda busted out crying right there. You can be something great. And that means I gotta push you to do this. Cause I only want the best for you, all the time. Cause you’re the best B. Ever.
I know you’re afraid. I’m not quite as dumb as I look. But you can’t be afraid to fail. Hell, how many times have I fallen on my ass? Ya know? But I keep getting up and punchin’ back. Cause I aint gonna stop living cause I’m afraid. And I can’t let you either. So, if you think I’m gonna sit back and let you throw this away, forget it B. I don’t care how many times you wiggle that pretty little ass of yours at me, I still gonna keep after you about it ( but, don’t stop wiggling it…PLEASE…God, Faith, you can’t think about her for five minutes without the hormones rushing. You’re hopeless…yeah. Heh.).
It suddenly hits her as she’s walking. She sits down, feeling like the wind’s been knocked out of her
God…I’m gonna miss her so much. I… hadn’t realized how much. Even if she goes to UC Sunnydale, she’s gonna be like gone…cause I’m not gonna be a big part of her new life. I can’t be. It’s gonna be like a whole new world for her… I hope just not so different that …things change. Too much. What if … she gets like so smart, I can’t relate? What if .. oh, god, what if she gets to be embarrassed to be with me? Cause I’m so stupid? Cause I talk crude and rude? What if… she meets someone else? Someone she loves more? And …oh man, I can’t even go there. What am I doing here? If I lose her, god I just wanna die. Shit, shit, shit I don’t know what I wanna do. Maybe I should just chill. Let her do whatever she wants. I mean… does she really need College? She’s really smart already. I don’t want to lose her, damn.
Dammit , Faith, stop it! This is about Buffy. It’s not about you. You’re being selfish, again. She has to have this chance. I would kick myself forever if I let her be a loser like me. No, I gotta encourage her to do this. And Faith, you’re really being a bitch to think Buffy is so shallow she’d not love you cause she went to school. Ya know? Hasn’t she proved time and time again she loves you? God. What do you need, a banner or something? No way. I’m gonna do this. She’s going to college, if I have to drag her myself.
And hey…who says I gotta STAY a loser? Maybe, I can like… get my diploma. Even go to Junior college, or somethin. I’m not stupid , ya know? I can do all sortsa things. So, screw this self pity crap. We’re both gonna get better.
Yeah
With new resolve, Faith points herself back to the house on Revello drive.
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Buffy has moved to the living room.
She is looking over the acceptance letters she’s gotten, and has her thinking face on.
Damn. I was such a bitch to Faith earlier. What’s wrong with me? It’s not her fault about how I feel about this. Why did I get all mad at her, anyway? All she’s trying to do is like help me, support me. And I make her feel bad. God. When am I gonna stop being such a brat, anyway?
Well, I can tell you right now( picking up the acceptance letters) Northwestern, U Mich, Penn State…no way. If I can’t have my Faithy with me, no way I’m goin to those schools.( tosses those three letters aside). Hmmm. That leaves UC Sunnydale. It’s close enough, I guess. Not like it’s on the other side of the country. So, why am I so afraid, anyway? Does going to college mean no Faith? I don’t really believe that, do I? Yeah, it’ll crimp into our time together. No question. But won’t we be able to make time for each other? So, why am I so scared?
Then the last brick falls in place for Buffy.
What if we grow apart? What if I go to college, and make new friends, and she doesn’t like them? Or… she thinks I get too intellectual for her? Like, I get to be some kinda snob…or she thinks I some kinda snob? Or…what if , cause I’m studying and she’s working and we’re both slaying, and we have so little time together, she …finds someone else? Oh, god. I couldn’t take that one! I’d go postal on the bitch. Or prick…. whatever, I couldn’t deal. Or what if we just… drift apart? That would be worst of all. Slow death by torture, bit by bit ‘til nothing’s left. Just thinking about it gives me the wiggins. I love her so much, I … can’t think of a life without her. The possibility of losing her just is like a knife in my gut. I know their right…I know their right…but , damn, I’m just so confused.
I can’t believe our bonds are that thin. We’ve been through so much together. How could it just go away because I go to college, or don’t? I know we’re stronger than that. I know our love is stronger than that. We can make this work. We gotta. Or ..am I so insecure? That I can’t trust me, or Faith, enough to believe that we can hold on together, no matter what. No. All I know is I love her. I’m gonna continue to love her, no matter what. No more fear. I gotta believe, and stop being afraid of change. I know I love her, I know she loves me. That’s all I know.
It’s so simple. We just do it. And we’ll go on. I know it. I’ve… been…stupid, again. God, how can I make so much outta going to college? I mean…most students it’s when and how much. Me, I make a soap opera outta it. Sigh. Isn’t life difficult enough?
Hey… maybe we can get a place off campus. I mean, I don’t have to live in the dorms. Hmmm… lil snuggle nest for me and my honey. That’d be great! No more worrying about making noise when we make love. Yeah. Mom won’t be right down the hall. And I bet it’d be cheaper than the dorm, anyway. Mom would love that. Be like when we were in L.A. We both had to work, but we always had our evenings together. But we’d have friends close by. PARTIES. Totally cool.
What was I thinkin’? This is gonna be great. This is gonna rock.

Faith is standing outside the front door . She is working herself up.
Ok, this aint gonna to be easy. She is dead set against it. But I’ll get her to see that its gonna be ok. It’ll be good. We’ll talk it out, take one fear, one problem at a time, and solve it. I know we can do this. There’s probably gonna be shouting. And tears. But I know we can do this. Our love is strong. We’ve been through a lot together. We can get through this.
Ok, Faith. This is it. March in there, put it to her. Let her get it outta her system. Then we’ll talk. Yeah
Ok. Lets go. Lets do this.
Faith enters the house. She sees Buffy. She braces for the storm.
“ Baby!” Buffy calls out. “ I’m gonna do it. I’m gonna go to UC Sunnydale. And it’s gonna be great”. Buffy sweeps past her.
“I gotta go tell Will. I’ll be back soon, and we can talk” Buffy leans in, and gives Faith a brief, but hot little kiss. “ Mmmm… and smooch. Definitely smoochies. Lots and lots of smoochies” Buffy smiles at her, and flies out the door.
Faith stands in the doorway, stunned. She walks out the door, and checks the address. She walks back in. She stands in the living room, totally in shock.
Who was that cute blonde…and what did she do with my Buffy?
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