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Nocturnal Bravura Book Three: Children Of Destiny	By : SShine Category: > Buffy/Spike(William) > Buffy/Spike(William) Views: 2228 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Lizzie sat at Dawn�s bedside. She touched her face and kissed her on her forehead before standing up to go.
�This is your greatest fear isn�t it?� Dawn asked quietly.
Lizzie looked at her sister. �What do you mean?�
Dawn sat up in her bed, hugging her knees. �You�re going to have to choose between them. You know that right?� At her sisters nod, she lay back down and closed her eyes. �You do what you have to do, Lizzie. I trust you.� Dawn said closing her eyes.
Lizzie felt a tear roll down her cheek. She closed the door and walked down the stairs. William was waiting for her in the living room, alone.
�Where�s Giles?� she asked.
�He�s in the study. I swear you can hear him cleaning his glasses from here,� William teased.
Lizzie smiled. �Will, I have to go.�
William crossed his arms. �To the mansion?� he asked in a carefully emotionless tone. His heart was breaking. Spike was back and Lizzie was still his mate. The bites on her neck proved it. She would leave him again.

�No.�
William�s head snapped up. Her denial rang in his ears. No?
�I�m going back to my crypt,� Lizzie replied.
William tried not to be relieved. He tried not to feel hope but he couldn�t help it. Lizzie was not returning to Spike. �Right then, I will walk you back.� To his shock Lizzie did not protest. She simply nodded and walked toward the door.
***
They walked in silence, neither of them saying a word, yet their thoughts consumed the air around them.
Lizzie looked up at William. �He doesn�t want me to return to him,� Lizzie said sadly.
William stopped walking. �What?� He asked, shocked.
Lizzie shook her head. �He said it wouldn�t be right.�
William took a deep breath and begun to walk again. �Because of your soul,� he deduced. When she nodded, he tried not to be enraged by his twin�s callousness but he couldn�t help it. �So, what? He just takes a chunk out of you to prove a point?� he spat out.
She looked up at him in misery, tears misting her eyes.
Instantly he felt ashamed. �I�m sorry, baby,� he whispered, stopping again and resting a tender hand on her cheek.
�You have nothing to be sorry for,� Lizzie said.
William pulled her close and buried his face in her hair, a shudder wracking his body. �I�m not going to lie to you, Lizzie. I was happy. Actually, I was overjoyed when you told me you weren�t going back to him. I thought I was going to lose you to him again.� A heavy sigh escaped him and he looked down at the ground. �But still, I can�t have you. Not like this.�
Lizzie nodded. �You feel you would have won by default.�
�When he was alive I was always in his bloody shadow. It never bothered me until you. When he got you, it nearly killed me,� William said.
Lizzie fiddled with her hands. �I know. Dawnie said something to me earlier. She said this was my greatest fear. That I would have to chose between the two of you. She was right. I can�t, Will. I never have been able to. I�m selfish. I love you both so much.� Lizzie said.
He hugged her tightly. �I know. Different but the same. I get that. I never thought you would have to either. Before, I could take it. I understood. You loved Spike. But now, Lizzie, I have seen the look in your eyes when you see me. I have felt your love. I don�t think I can walk away. I can�t be noble not this time Lizzie. I will fight for you if I have to.� William swore.
Lizzie closed her eyes. �You can�t fight something that�s not there to fight. Spike backed off.�
William pulled back. �I�m not talking about Spike, Lizzie. I�m talking about you,� he explained.
Lizzie looked at him confused.
�You�re going to have to figure this all out. Figure out what you truly want. Until then I will be here. I will be your best friend. We�ll continue to fight the good fight shoulder to shoulder. One day, when you are ready to chose, I will be here.� William said.
Lizzie brushed away her tears. �I don�t deserve your loyalty.�
�Yes you do. You deserve that and so much more,� he smiled, pressing his face to her hair once more. He tried to be strong. He tried to not be afraid. He tried to tell himself whatever her decision was, he would accept it. But a part of him secretly feared her decision.
He couldn�t lose her.
Not again...

***
Spike looked around his bedroom. The minions had laid out some of the dark princess� things, thinking he would return with her. When she didn�t none of them dared question him. They saw the fresh bite marks on his neck, so there was no doubt that she was still his one and only mate, but they did not know what to make of the situation.
He sat at the edge of the bed. Their bed. They had spent hours here. The memories played in his head. All the nights he spent watching over her, trying to make deals with whoever would listen to him to make her better. He chuckled to himself then roared at the ceiling. �Got a sense of humor don�t ya! Do the only thing I ever asked for just to take it away!� He screamed.
Trembling, he touched the white night gown and took in its scent. It smelt like her...He closed his eyes, remembering her so sick, so lost, so confused.
Spike crawled up the bed. The same bed they had made love in night after night. He curled up into a ball and began to sob. �She can�t be with you Mate. Get over it you ponce,� he thought to himself.
He was the Master of the Hellmouth. He would go on. Somehow without her, he would.
Spike knew he was lying to himself. He needed her. He craved her like he craved blood. He knew there was no way he could be without her, but he had to try.
He didn�t have a choice....
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Nocturnal Bravura Book Three: Children Of Destiny