I fall to pieces

Since I wasn’t entirely happy with the last chapter I decided to go back and add things within the last three parts. The parts that were in the last chapter will be underlined. I was tired when I posted last, please forgive me. If it gets confusing just ask.

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“Ok…I’ll call you when dinner’s almost ready…” Joyce smiled softly at them as they walked out of the house hand in hand.

They walked out into the middle of her yard, fingers still entwined. “You chose me…I can’t believe you chose me…” Spike whispered pulling her down beside him to sit on the grass.

She studied him for a few moments, loving the way he looked in the sun. It made the blue of his eyes more intense somehow. She could see his passion, his love for her shining just below the surface.

“We need to talk Spike…” Buffy said softly. “If we’re gonna be together…we need to sort everything out, so that there are no misunderstandings…no regrets….”

“Only thing I regret luv is walking out on you...” Spike pulled her against him. “I just need you close to me right now…” He murmured.

“Why did you leave? I called after you…I tried to follow you, but I just couldn’t…all my strength left me…” She nestled closer to him. “I was devastated…it hurt so much to watch you walk away like that…” She could feel tears forming, just from thinking about it.

“Shhh Luv. I didn’t mean to hurt you…that’s what I was tryin’ to avoid…I saw how upset you were when you saw it was Angel…and I saw in your eyes that you still love him…I just want you to be happy Buffy…if he can do that for you I was willing to step aside…”

“I…don’t take this the wrong way ok?” She turned to him and held his gaze. “I do still love him. But not in the way you think. I’m not in love with him anymore. He will always hold a special place in my heart but what we had is over. He told me he wanted me back…wanted to be with me again…before the words even left his mouth I knew that wasn’t what I wanted. I want you Spike. With every fiber of my being. I want you.”

“You’ve got me baby…I belong to you as I have no other…what I feel for you…” Spike closed his eyes. “I love you so much…have for a long time…and when we made love…twas the best day of my whole existence.”

Buffy leaned in and gave him a chaste kiss. “I know….it was like that for me too…it was amazing.” She smiled. “By the way…I ran into Harmony when I was looking for you…”

Spike growled low in his throat. “That bint. I’m sorry luv…I forgot all about her bein’ at my crypt…” He hung his head in shame.

“Hey…Spike it’s ok. She told me how to find you…how to let your claim lead me to you…”

“My claim?” He asked incredulously. “What do you mean my claim?”

“When you bit me…when you were sleeping…” She could feel a deep painful knot of fear beginning to form in her stomach. ‘What if he didn’t mean to do it? What if it was a mistake?’ She took a deep calming breath, trying to get herself under control. “You…you didn’t mean to?” She asked trying to keep the vulnerability out of her voice.

“Oh luv.” Spike lifted her chin and gazed into her eyes. “Not that I didn’t want to…I just…I wish I would have done it with your consent…when I was actually awake enough to enjoy it…”

“You didn’t know?” She asked.

“I blocked it from my mind, the whole bite, how it made me feel, everything. Didn’t want to remember hurting you…” He said softly.

“Well you’re just gonna have to do it again aren’t you?” She asked coyly.

“Don’t play with me girl…” He growled softly. She tilted her head so he could see the mark he placed on her flesh. He let out a feral growl and leaned in, running his tongue over the abraded flesh. He nipped gently with blunt teeth causing her to moan in pleasure.

“Spike…” She whispered. She pulled back to gaze into his eyes. “Promise me you’ll never leave me…”

“Never luv. I’d have to be dust…”

“Buffy! Spike! Dinner’s almost ready…could you come in and set the table?” Joyce called from the house.

Buffy and Spike glanced towards the house. “Betcha I can beat you there…” She was off and running before she finished speaking.

Giggling and shrieking she ran towards the house. She could feel him behind her, getting closer and closer. Spike put on a burst of speed and caught her just as she reached the top step. Grabbing her around the waist her threw her over his shoulder and carried a giggling Buffy into the house.

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Angel awoke with the sunset. He growled softly to himself before getting out of bed. Grabbing his jacket he walked out the door.

‘I have to tell Giles about the claim, and the fact the Spike didn’t dust…I have to get her back…get her away from him.’ Angel decided as he made his way towards her house.

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“Oh my god mother, you made enough food for an army.” She grinned glancing at all of the food Joyce had spread over the kitchen counters.

“There will be seven of us.” Joyce said “Now…take these in the dining room and set the table please…” She said handing Buffy a stack of plates and silverware.

“What can I do?” Spike asked.

“Could you carry the bread tray in for me?” Joyce asked.

Spike took the tray into the dining room, giving Buffy a quick kiss he returned to the kitchen to await further instruction. Joyce kept handing him different items to carry in.

When Buffy was finished setting the table she joined them in the kitchen. “What’s next?” Buffy asked.

The doorbell rang. “How about getting that for me while I help Spike finish carrying stuff into the dining room?” Joyce asked.

“Cool. I can do that.” Buffy smiled. She gave Spike a quick kiss before going to answer the door.

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“What are you doing here?” Buffy asked hostilely as when she saw who was on the other side of the door.

“Buffy I…I’m sorry for the way I behaved earlier…I just worry about you…” Giles said softly. “I was quite stunned to see that you let him bite you…can we please work through it?” Giles asked. ‘I have figured out why you are defending him. Now I just have to make you see it.’ He smiled tentatively.

“We can try…” She offered. ‘I swear if you say anything about Spike…’ She left that thought unfinished.

Ushering Giles into the living room she returned to the kitchen to see if there was anything else her mom needed her to do.

“What’s wrong sweet?” Spike asked placing a soft hand on her arm. He could tell by her posture that she was angry.

“Giles just got here. I think we’re in for a long night.” She said tightly.

“It’s ok luv. We have each other, we’ll work it out.” Spike soothed taking her into his arms. He held her for a few moments until the doorbell rang again and she left his embrace to answer it.

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“Buffy!” Willow screeched grabbing her friend in a crushing embrace. “I’m so glad you’re ok.” She whispered.

“I didn’t mean to worry you Will.” Buffy said softly.

“It’s ok. You’re fine now right?” Willow hugged her again.

“Giles is in the living room. Why don’t we head in there…” Buffy said as the doorbell chimed once again. “Or you head on in and I’ll get the door…”

Willow smiled and walked into the living room.

“Buffy. Are you ok?” Xander asked hugging her tightly.

“I’m fine Xand…” Buffy smiled.

“She said she’s fine Xander. You can let go of her now.” Anya ground out through clenched teeth.

Buffy pulled back and smiled. “Hey Anya.”

“Hey Buffy. No offence but Xander is mine.”

“I know he’s yours Anya…” She smiled. ‘Besides I have someone of my own.’ Gesturing towards the living room she sighed. “You guys go on in. I have to check with mom to see if there’s anything she needs me to do…”

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“How could you invite them all here?” Buffy asked fiercely.

“I invited them yesterday…I didn’t know where you were Buffy and they were so concerned…”

“I know but…they’re just gonna try to get between me and Spike.” Buffy said softly as she rubbed her eyes.

Spike came up behind her and pulled her back flush with his front. “Mind if I have a word with your eldest?” Spike asked Joyce.

She flashed him a relieved smile. “I’ll go and check on our guests…” She said swiftly exiting the kitchen.

Spike stroked her stomach lightly. “Would it be easier on you if I were to leave pet? Come back after the scoobies have gone?” Spike murmured.

“I don’t want you to go…” Buffy whispered. She turned in his arms and rested her head on his shoulder. “I just want them to accept it…I know they won’t…at least not right away…but it doesn’t change what I want Spike.”

“I know it doesn’t luv…I just want to make it as easy as possible for you luv…” Spike said soothingly. “It’s not your mum’s fault…”

Faintly they heard the doorbell ring again.

“What would make it easiest on me Spike is if you were there with me…beside me…like you should be…”

Spike nodded. He started growling deep in his chest. “Angel’s here…”

Buffy closed her eyes. She felt him too. “What do we do?”

“We go and face em’. Together.” Spike said softly hugging her close.

“Let’s go then.” She smiled and tugged gently on his hand.

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Everyone was seated at the dining room table by the time Buffy and Spike entered.

Angel looked up and growled. “Couldn’t you at least shower? I can still smell him between your legs.” He spat out.

The whole room was silent except the feral growling coming form deep within Spike’s chest.

Buffy’s eyes widened in shock. She glared at Angel with unshed tears in her eyes. “I thought I told you to leave town.”

“I’m not leaving until I’m sure he’s gone.” Angel growled jerking his head towards Spike.

“Let it go luv. He’s just jealous…” Spike leaned down to whisper in her ear.

Ignoring Angel they took their seats. The room stayed silent.

“Rupert…would you please pass the potatoes?” Joyce asked to break the silence. It was the only words spoken through the entire meal.

Everyone was staring at Buffy and Spike, watching their interaction with great interest. Everyone noticed the little touches, and discrete smiles the couple shared.

“Why don’t we all head into the living room?” Joyce asked when everyone was done. “I think we have a few things to discuss.”

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I think this chapter flows more easily. Please let me know if you like it and want me to continue.