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Once More With Feeling	By : TiffersTaffy Category: -Buffy the Vampire Slayer > Het - Male/Female > Buffy/Giles Views: 4209 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter List
- 6
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Chapter 7:
Vision Quest

Buffy had enjoyed
her bath, and was beginning to dry off and get dressed. She didn't
know if Giles was still downstairs or if he had left. She hoped he
hadn't gone home without saying goodbye. She didn't think he would
do that. He never had before, and he wouldn't start now that they
were...dating. Buffy still couldn't believe that they were dating,
and that she was in love with a man over half her age. But, she
knew she was beginning to believe that their age difference didn't
matter as much as some people would like to believe. After all,
Buffy had dated Angel, and he was over a hundred years older than
her. Giles was only about fifteen years her senior. But, she didn't
care for age anymore. She just cared that this man was as loving as
she could have ever wanted, and she knew he would take care of her.
She would return the favor and love him back with all of her heart.
She dried her blonde hair off with a towel, before slipping on a
pair of little bit too big pajama pants, and an over-sized top
pajama top that matched it. The buttons where falling off from it
being worn so much, but it was still her favorite pair. She let her
hair hang lose, and turned to put all her clothes into the dirty
clothes hamper behind her. That was when she saw him standing in
the doorway. She didn't know how long Giles had been there, but she
was glad to see him. She walked over to him, a huge grin on her
face and wrapped her arms around her waist. She looked up at him
and spoke, her voice soft so that she wouldn't disturb Dawn down
the hall.

"Miss me too
much?"

"Actually
yes..."

He spoke just as
soft, but his voice was a little bit deeper than normal. She could
see the lust in his eyes, and it didn't make her as uncomfortable
as she thought that it would. His lips met hers in a fiery kiss, as
he pushed her up against the sink and cabinets behind her. The
longing she could feel from him was enough to make Buffy want him
more than she already did. Their lips continued to play a tug of
war, as his hands moved up her shirt, unbuttoning it to leave her
skin bare against his shirt. She would have never thought that
Giles could make her feel like her whole body was on fire. But, he
was doing a pretty good job at igniting the fires deep down inside
of her. Her hands moved to his hair, running her fingers through it
as his lips moved to her neck. A small moan echoed from her lips as
his mouth met her skin. She had missed being like this. She had
missed being so close to someone, and yet wanting them to be
closer. She had longed to be touched by someone since her and Riley
had broken up. And, now she was in the arms of her watcher; someone
she had never thought would be able to make her feel complete just
by feeling his touch. After a few playful bites to her collar bone,
he stopped and let go of her. He turned to leave and she grabbed
his hand, her eyes pleading with him for him to tell her what was
wrong.

"Did I do
something wrong?"

"No, Love.
You didn't do anything wrong...I just...don't think we should be
doing this in the bathroom with your fourteen year old sister just
down the hall."

She nodded, and
sighed as she tried to calm down. She was still flushed, and she
was sure he could see it. He took her hand, and nudged his head out
the door. She knew where he was going. She didn't even have to ask.
They both stopped at Dawn's door, seeing she was fast asleep on her
bed. Buffy smiled as Giles looked down at her, and motioned his
head towards her bedroom. She nodded and followed him, closing the
door behind her. He was already sitting on her bed, looking up at
her with that same look in his eyes. She moved over to him and sat
down in his lap, her arms wrapping themselves around his neck. She
kissed his forehead, and pulled away taking his glasses with her.

"Can you
still see me?"

"Yes,
beautiful. I can. "

She felt him pick
her up in his arms and moved her up onto the pillows on her little
full sized bed. She sat his glasses down on the bedside table
beside her, and waited for him to join her. He was beside her a few
minutes later, and she rolled over into his arms, cuddling as close
as she could get to him. She looked up at him as she felt his hand
stroking her cheek. His lips met hers once more, before he pulled
away, his eyes never leaving her face. She was the most beautiful
thing in the world, and he never wanted to stop looking at her. She
spoke after a few moments the question that had been on her mind
since she had seen him standing in her bathroom doorway.

"Are you
going home tonight?"

He didn't answer
right away, his mind was mulling over the possibilities. Giles
would have loved nothing more than to stay in her bed, holding her
close. But, the others where already shaky about their budding
romance. Would it smart to spend the night in her arms after they
just decided they wanted to date? It was moving fast. He knew he
wanted it to move fast, but after losing her mother it would be
better if they kept things as slow as possible. He sighed, kissing
her forehead once more before sitting up with his back to her.

"I don't
think I should stay...I want to, Buffy, believe me. But..."

"It's too
soon, right?"

He turned to face
her, nodding in response to her question. He knew that she wanted
him to stay with her, and he would have loved to oblige her. He
could see the disappointment in her eyes, but he was firm in his
decision. He didn't want to rush her into a relationship with him.
It would mean more in the long run if they kept things slow and let
the romance kindle slowly. Even if his lust for her had a different
plan. He could keep himself in check till she was ready. He had
waited two years for her. He could wait a few more days, or weeks.
He laid back down beside her, pulling her close. She snuggled back
into his chest, listening to the beating of his heart. She spoke
up, looking up into his eyes hoping the words that she spoke would
be taken seriously.

"I'm going to
miss you tonight..."

"So will I,
love. There is nothing I would rather do than stay here with
you..."

She looked up at
him as a small smile formed on his face. His hand gently stroked
her hair that had begun to dry. He didn't want to leave. He wanted
to be with her forever. He would die a thousand deaths if it meant
he could live with her forever in his arms. He knew he had always
been a bit of a hopeless romantic, but he had rarely been able to
share his affections to the women he loved before. He wasn't going
to let that happen with Buffy. He kissed her forehead once more
before standing up, and taking his glasses off the table. Buffy sat
up, knowing a night without him was going to be hard on her. He
turned back to her, holding out his arms to her.

"Can I at
least get a hug and kiss goodbye?"

She nodded, and
jumped out of bed and wrapped her arms around him, giving him the
tightest hug she had ever given him. After the hug, she reached up
and kissed him, their lips meeting with passion and fire that he
had longed for. He never wanted to let go, but he knew if he didn't
both of their clothes where going to end up on the floor. Not that
he didn't want to be with her in the most intimate of ways, it just
wasn't the smartest thing for the both of them. He pulled away from
her, stroking her face with his hand.

"How was
that?"

"Wonderful...Good
night Buffy."

"Good
night...babe."

He chuckled at the
use of the word babe in reference to him. It was the first pet name
she had called him since they confessed their love for one another
a few hours before. He pulled her hand to his lips, kissing it
softly, before dropping it and making his way towards the door. He
turned and stopped when he got there, speaking in a soft voice so
that he wouldn't wake Dawn up.

"If you need
me, just call me...I'll answer, I promise."

"I know. You
always do."

He smiled and
walked out of her bedroom and down the stairs. Buffy wanted to
chase him, but she knew he was right. It wouldn't be the best idea
for him to spend the night with her. At least not yet. She moved
back to her bed, and laid down, pulling her covers over her. She
spent the next thirty minutes thinking about Giles and how much she
loved him and messed him before drifting off to sleep.

Dawn woke Buffy up
the next morning before she left for school. It was a Friday, and
Dawn was obviously ready to get to school and then go back home.
Buffy wore a brown sweater with a pair of dark blue jeans and a
milk chocolate-colored jacket covering it. Her hair was pulled back
into a bun, and she wore only a simple cross necklace around her
neck with her three little silver earrings in her ears, two in the
left and one in the right. Dawn was wearing a white teeshirt and
blue jeans, with her hair down like she usually wore it. Buffy
joined her in the kitchen, yawning as she fixed a bowl of Lucky
Charms cereal. Dawn was watching her, and spoke up after a few
minutes breaking Buffy's concentration. She got that warm and fuzzy
feeling of pure love once again and smiled, before answering her
sister's question.

"Where did
Giles go?"

"He...went
home last night."

"Why?"

"After
yesterday, we both thought it was a bad idea for him to spend the
night again."

Buffy spoke to her
sister as she joined her at a seat on the bar in the kitchen. Dawn
nodded, and continued to eat her Capitan Crunch cereal. Yesterday
had not been something Buffy wanted to live again, and she was now
thankful that Giles had decided to go home. Even if she had spent
most of the night wishing that he was holding her. Dawn broke the
silence again, just after Buffy had finished another bite of her
cereal.

"Is he coming
over today?"

"Yeah. We are
going out to the desert."

"That...doesn't
sound like a very romantic getaway, Buffy."

"It's slayer
stuff..."

"Oh.."

Dawn finished her
cereal and walked over to sink and put the bowl in it. She turned
back to Buffy, who was also just about finished with her cereal.
Buffy stood up, and put her bowl in the sink, as she stood beside
her sister. She was glad that Dawn was one of the few people who
where trying to support her and Giles. It meant a lot for her baby
sister to be encouraging, considering her two best friends had
almost eaten her alive the day before for even suggesting that her
and Giles were together.

"Buffy..."

"Yeah?"

"I'm really
am glad you and Giles are together..."

"I'm glad
too, Dawn. I just don't think Willow and Xander are all that
thrilled."

"They will
get over it, Buffy. It's just something we all will have to get use
to."

Buffy nodded as
Dawn turned and hugged her sister. Buffy and Dawn didn't always get
along, but they did love each other. Buffy knew she needed to
protect her sister from falling into Glory's hands. She was all
that Buffy had left of her family. Her mother had gone on to
heaven, and her father had disappeared off the face of the Earth.
Dawn was all she had left of her broken family, and she wasn't
going to lose her. Even if she wasn't really her sister, but some
kind of key for something that Glory wants to use her for. In
Buffy's mind, she would always be her baby sister.

"You better
get going, Dawn."

"Okay..Will
you be home after school?"

"I don't
know. I'm going to the Magic Box, so I'll tell Willow or Tara if
they are there."

"Okay. I love
you, Buffy."

"I love you
too, Dawn."

She gave her
sister a hug and watched her grab her book bag and head for the
front door. Dawn had opened the front door to see Giles standing
there. He was dressed rather casually for him, in a white teeshirt
underneath a brown jacket and a pair of faded blue jeans. She
smiled and gave him a hug, which he gladly returned. She pulled
away and motioned for him to come inside, which he did. She then
turned to yell for her sister.

"Buffy, Lover
boy is here!"

Giles chuckled at
her comment, and Dawn just looked up at him and grinned. Buffy
walked out of the kitchen and into the dining room, with a confused
look on her face. But, she smiled as soon as she saw him. She
didn't expect him to come over so early, but maybe he had been
missing her just as much as she missed him. She walked to him, and
went into his arms, feeling the warmth and love coming from him
from the moment he hugged her back. Dawn said goodbye, taking her
cue to leave before everything got too mushy for her. Buffy leaned
up and kissed him as soon as Dawn was gone and the door had been
slammed behind them. She pulled away a few moments later, the smile
still on her face as she spoke to him.

"I didn't
expect to see you so early. I was going to come to the Magic Box."

"I know, I
just couldn't wait another minute to see you."

She grinned as he
kissed her once more, their lips merging together with every second
that passed. His tongue had passed through her lips, and she was
enjoying ever minute of their passionate French kiss. But, he
pulled away a few seconds later, smiling down at her. She spoke to
him, her voice bright and vibrant as it had been in several weeks.
Though her lips now held a small pout that he found incredibly
seductive. She giggled like a little school girl who had just found
their first love, and it made him happy to see her smiling once
again.

"You weren't
kidding, huh?"

"No, I don't
believe I was. I'm not one to kid about these things, Buffy."

He placed a hand
on the small of her back, and the other moved to her cheek. It had
been one miserable night without her. He couldn't remember how long
he had laid awake thinking about her, and kicking himself for
leaving her side. He had had a few pleasant dreams about her, but
dreams were never as good as the real thing. She sighed, and kissed
his hand before pulling away and walking over to the couch in the
living room, which she patted so that he would know to sit down
beside her. He followed her and did as she wanted, listening to her
speak.

"So, when are
we leaving?"

"Well, I
think we should leave as soon as your ready. We have to stop by the
Magic Box first so I can get a few supplies."

"Okay. That's
good because I need to have someone watch Dawn. Are Willow and Tara
there?"

"I don't
know. I think we should go and find out."

She was nervous
when she realized that this would be the first time she had to see
her friends since they had bashed her relationship with Giles the
day before. Giles could see that something was troubling her, and
he had an idea of what it might be. He leaned over and kissed her
cheek as he pulled her close to his body. She snuggled into him,
which he hope she would never stop doing, and rubbed her back as he
spoke.

"Love,
everything will work itself out."

"I know...I
just don't want a repeat of yesterday..."

"I can take
care of myself, Buffy...I will be fine. Trust me."

She nodded, and
hugged him, sighing contently as they cuddled. She felt safe with
him. Even though she knew that she would have to protect him more
than he protected her, it was still comforting to know that he
would fight for her. She felt him kissing her forehead, something
she had grown quite fond of. His affections made her stomach do
flip flops in this amazing way that she never wanted to stop. She
sat up and smiled, before standing up and stretching. She turned
back to Giles, who had been watching her every movement. Everything
she did made her seem more and more beautiful to him. He couldn't
keep his eyes off of her, and it would probably escalate to where
he couldn't keep his hands off of her either.

"Let's go do
this vision quest thing then..."

He nodded and
stood up, taking the hand she had offered to him. The pair made
their way out the front door to head out towards the Magic Box.

When they arrived
at the Magic Box, that queasy, uneasy feeling returned once more as
she sat in the passenger seat beside him. His hand moved to her
leg, patting it softly. She turned to look at him, a small smile
forming on her face. He got out of the car, and walked over to the
passenger side door, opening it for her. It had been a long time
since a man had opened a car door for her. It was kind of sweet,
even if she could have thrown the door into the window of the shop.
She got out of the car and leaned up, kissing him on the cheek, as
he closed the door behind her and put a hand on her back. She
turned to him and spoke, a little giggle coming from her lips.

"You're going
to spoil me rotten, aren't you?"

"That would
be the plan."

"Then I like
the plan..."

He opened the door
to the shop, and they both walked inside. Buffy tried not to look
nervous as she saw Willow and Tara sitting at the table in the
center of the room that the Scoobies tended to congregate at.
Xander was probably at work, since it was still pretty early and
Anya was walking around the shop trying to get people to buy as
many things as she possibly could. Giles walked off over towards
his office, not really looking at anyone else. Buffy took a deep
breath and walked slowly over to where her friends where sitting,
standing in between both of them. Willow was the first to speak, a
small smile on her face.

"Good
morning, Buffy."

"Hey
Will...Tara."

"What's up?"

"Well...Giles
and I are going out to the desert today for Slayer duties...and I
don't know when I'll be back so..."

"You want us
to watch Dawn for you?"

"If its not
too much trouble, Tara, I would."

"Of course,
Buffy. What are friends for?"

"Thanks,
Will. I appreciate it."

There was a bit of
a silence before Willow scooted over and motioned for Buffy to sit
down beside her. Buffy did so, smiling at her friend. She could
tell that Willow was trying to make an effort of trying to be
supportive of Buffy. And Buffy was glad of that. Tara had been
supportive from the beginning, but she supposed it didn't freak her
out as much since Tara didn't happen to go to high school with
Buffy and Willow when Giles was the librarian. Tara broke the
silence, a small smile forming on her face as she spoke.

"How are
things...with you and Giles, I mean?"

"Um...Good.
Better than Good."

"That's good.
Right Will?"

"Yup...He
makes you happy. Right, Buffy?"

"Very."

"Well, then
good. Willow and I have no complaints then."

Buffy noticed that
Tara was trying to help Willow get more use to the idea. Tara had
probably talked to her for a long time the night before about
trying to be understanding about Giles and Buffy being together.
Buffy was thankful for that. Willow could be a little stubborn
sometimes. Willow nodded her head after Tara made her statement,
and reached over and hugged Buffy. Buffy hugged her back, seeing
Giles standing only a few feet behind them. He must not have wanted
to disturb the moment. Buffy smiled and pulled away, as Willow
turned and saw Giles herself.

"Are you
ready, Giles?"

He nodded and she
stood up out of the chair she had been sitting in. pushing it in
underneath the table. She waved goodbye to her friends as she
walked over to Giles.

"Be safe,
guys..."

"We'll take
care of Dawn for you."

"Thanks
again, Willow...Tara."

Buffy said her
thanks once more, before following Giles out the door of the Magic
Box and back to his car. He opened the door for her again, and she
slid in. She sat quietly until he had gotten in the driver's seat
and started the car, driving away from the Magic Box.

"I think they
are trying...Right?"

"Yes, they
are. Give them some time, Buffy."

He placed a hand
on her leg once again, and she took his hand and held it, smiling.
She didn't know what the future held for them, but as long as they
where together she thought that they could make it through
anything.

The pair reached
the desert about an hour later, getting out of the car. Buffy
didn't really know what this vision quest thing was going to
entail. But, she knew that she had to do it if she was ever going
to get back on track as the Slayer. She stepped out of the car,
letting her eyes gaze across the landscape. She didn't know how
long the pair of them would be out there, but she could tell it was
going to be one hot day. She walked around the front of the car,
meeting Giles in the front.

"The place we
have to go to is a little bit of trek..."

"Lead the
way, Obi-Wan."

She snickered
after she finished speaking, seeing the look that he gave her.
Buffy was sure that he knew she was picking though. He reached down
and put out his hand to her, which she excepted as they began
walking together. They walked for twenty minutes in total silence.
At least one thing was going to remain the same, and that was their
working relationship. Even though they where both madly in love
with each other, it was important to keep focused. They reached a
little hill near a dead tree and Giles finally stopped, dropping
her hand. He turned to face her, putting his hand on her face.

"Okay, love,
this is where we have to go our separate ways."

"What do I
do?"

"Keep going
north. I will call your spirit guide from here, and it will show
you the rest of the way."

She nodded,
wishing she didn't have to leave. She knew it was important for her
to get her focus back if she was going to be any help to Dawn.
Right now, she was two steps away from hanging up the stakes and
giving it all up. She knew it wasn't something she could do anyway.
It wasn't like she had chosen to kill demons through out most of
her teen years and into her young adult life. She sighed, looking
down at the ground.

"Buffy?"

"I know...I
got to go..."

"Be careful,
Love."

"I
will...Don't worry too much, okay?"

He nodded, knowing
that he would still worry till he saw her again. She reached up and
kissed him, her lips hovering for a few seconds on his before
pulling away. He pulled her close, giving her a hug. He hoped that
this quest would help her, and that she wouldn't be gone to long.
She pulled away and turned to leave, stopping for only a second.
She turned back to him, her face still just as serious as before.
She wanted to stay, but she knew how important it was that she did
this quest. And it had to be something that she did on her own. She
sighed, and turned back towards the north and began walking. Giles
worried for her, but he knew she would be safe. She was stronger
than any woman he had ever known, both emotionally and physically.
If anyone could take care of themselves it would be Buffy. Giles
watched her walk away for a few more minutes before beginning the
ritual to bring Buffy to her spirit guide.

Buffy walked for a
little over an hour, her legs beginning to tire before she found
what she was looking for. A brown mountain lion walked towards her,
watching her. Buffy was scared of the animal at first, but she then
realized that this was a guide Giles had sent for her. The animal
was what was going to lead her to the holy spot in the desert. She
smiled at the animal, making sure that she didn't get to close. She
didn't know if it was real or not and she didn't want to take her
chances. The mountain lion's eyes where watching her every move,
and she knew it was trying to tell her not to be afraid. She spoke
to the it, her voice not in the least bit shaky.

"Hello,
Kitty."

The cat turned and
began walking towards the direction that she had been walking in.
She followed it, not knowing exactly where she was going to be led.
It took about thirty minutes before the cat finally stopped and
turned back around to face Buffy. It's eyes told her that this was
the spot. Buffy looked around, and the place was familiar to her.
It was the same place she saw the image of the first slayer a
little less than a year ago. She turned back to were the cat had
been sitting, and noticed that the animal was gone. She sighed,
sitting on a rock behind her. She sat there for a long time, and
fell asleep when the sun was just beginning to go down.

Buffy awoke to the
sound of a roaring fire, and the image of a black woman wearing
white warrior paint was behind the fire. She knew instantly who the
woman was. It was the First Slayer.

"I know
you...You're the First Slayer.."

"This is but
an image. I am the guide."

So, whoever up
there that was watching her decided to send her the form of the
First Slayer to help her with her questions. It was a little
intimidating to see the animalistic woman sitting before her behind
the roaring fire. But, this would be the only chance to talk to
someone about her fears and worries about being the slayer. She
sighed and spoke up, watching the image carefully.

"I-I have a
few questions...about being the slayer. What about Love? And not
just boyfriend love..."

"You think
that you are losing the ability to love."

"I didn't say
that.."

Buffy was
surprised by how much the guide knew about what she needed to talk
to her about. But then again, the guide was supposed to help her
with her problems. It made sense that it knew a little something
about it.

"Yeah..."

"Your afraid
that being the Slayer means losing your humanity."

"Does it?"

The guide stopped
for a minute, the fire burning brighter than Buffy had noticed
before. The guide continued on, telling her what she needed to
hear.

"You are full
of love. You love with all your soul. It's brighter than the
fire...blinding...and that's why you run from it."

"I'm full of
love? I'm not losing it?"

"Only if you
reject it. Love is pain, and the Slayer forges strength from pain.
Love...give...forgive. Risk the pain. It is in your nature. Love
will bring you to your gift."

"What?"

Buffy had never
been more confused. Love would bring her to her gift? What was the
woman talking about? She had never felt more confused in all her
life. She took a deep breath and asked the guide once again, hoping
everything would be explained.

"I-I'm
getting a gift? Or do you mean that I have a gift to give to
someone else?"

"Life is your
gift..."

"Life is my
gift? How can I give Life as a gift? All I bring to my enemies is
death...So how do I give life? I don't understand."

"Your
question has been answered..."

And with that, the
fire and the first slayer disappeared into the night. She looked
around, still feeling as though she hadn't learned anything.
Nothing made sense to her. But, she knew that if she didn't trust
what the Slayer had said that everything would turn out wrong. She
stood up, and in the darkness walked back in the direction that she
came and towards Giles. Maybe he would understand what she had
meant.
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