Chapter 6: Tough Love
"If love be rough with you, be rough with love"
Romeo and Juliet
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Willy's place was packed and loud. Spike sat by the bar and drank his beer. Quietly, Gunn stood there observing his friend who hadn't moved from his chair all evening. He’d been acting like that since yesterday when he’d got back from training. The weekend was usually something his friend looked forward to. His time off from the pressure of training, but now nothing seemed to interest him.
"Lots of honeys in the house…" Gunn looked around sending Spike a sidelong glace.
"And I think that little redhead in the corner is checking you out Spikey." He pointed to her direction with his head.
Spike didn't even bother with a glance and just took anther sip from his drink.
"Okay!...what’s up with you tonight man?" Gunn snapped sitting beside him.
Spike gave him a weary gaze.
"I'm knackered Charlie, had a long week." He shrugged, his voice low, his eyes glittering in the dim light.
"I’ve never seen you like this, Spike. Usually I'm the first to spill his toys and candy all over the floor."
"One step ahead of you mate." Spike raised his glass and took a deep draught.
"Okay, that's it!" Gunn took the glass from him.
"Hey!" Spike protested, and for the first time that evening looked directly at his friend.
"You know Hank doesn't like it when you drink."
"Yeah…he doesn't like it when I smoke either." Spike stood up looking for his lighter in his pockets. "He's not my bloody father you know," he mumbled putting a cigarette in his mouth.
Gunn looked at his friend who was clearly unaware of his strange behavior.
"How the hell did you get drunk so fast?" He asked realizing the severity of his friend’s insobriety.
"Years of practice Charlie boy." Spike kept looking for his lighter in his back pockets. His shoulders loosened and as he tried to steady his balance he almost stumbled onto the chair behind him.
"Yeah well, years of practice will go down the drain if you keep that up"
Spike sighed and pulled the cigarette from his mouth. "Bugger!, I lost my lighter."
"Good." Gunn got up from his chair. "Now let's go get some coffee in you."
Just as Spike turned to pay the bill a familiar voice came from behind him.
"Oh look what the night’s brought me. My William."
Spike turned around quickly, hardly believing his eyes.
"Dru?"
"Yes dear boy…your princess is back" She approached him.
"W-what are you doing here?" Spike tried to steady his voice.
"Looking for new pleasures my Spike… you know me." Her eyes glittered as she spoke.
"Yes I do… and I'm not 'your Spike' any more."
"Oh…are you still cross with me, sweet Willy?"
Gunn chuckled lightly at the sound of his friend been called 'Willy.'
The two glared at him.
"Sorry" He mumbled taking his seat and turning his gaze to the other direction.
"So you’re back in town…didn't think I'd see you in a place like this, pet. Didn't go well with the ugly, rich fellow you've been seeing, then?" Spike raised a brow.
"He was too slimy for my taste" Dru came closer to him, watching his hard expression.
And his body stiffened as she invaded his personal space.
"What do you want Dru?"
"How about a drink William…for old times sake?"
"I don't know if they serve cyanide here."
"Oh wicked Spike!" She took a step back playing offended. "Shame on you, have you already forgotten all the things mommy did for you?"
"You mean lying to me, betraying me, taking my money and leaving? Nope haven't forgotten about that."
"So ungrateful you are, my William, but you know I'm right, deep down you know."
Quickly she was in front of him, again observing him closely, trying to catch his eye.
"You know you belong with me, I'm the only proper family you ever had."
"Not my family Dru, just my past. You know nothing about me anymore."
With that she gave him a spiteful grin.
"I know all of your secrets my dark prince," she whispered close to his ear, gazing at his frozen face.
"Goodbye Dru," he said in a low voice, his face still void of emotion.
Dru smiled and turned around to leave, but not before giving him a lascivious glare. Spike knew this glare all too well, he even used to like it, but this time he knew that it meant trouble. Crazy bint… you sure do know how to pick them mate, he scolded himself.
Gunn watched the whole scene, noticing his friend’s agonized face.
"What is it?" He stood beside him.
"Just feeling a little sick" Spike pressed his fingers to his temples.
"Oh yeah?" Gunn scanned the place Dru had been standing moments ago.
"Think you’re ready for sobering up right about now 'big bad.'" He handed Spike his jacket. Putting a hand on his friend's shoulder he guided him to the exit.
"With any luck you’ll forget you ever met that nutty Dru and avoid a hangover at the same time," He said.
"I don't think that's possible," Spike mumbled gazing down and taking one more fatigued step.
"No…probably not."
Gunn smirked behind him, as they walked out of the pub.
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It was Saturday afternoon and Spike was sitting on the couch in his living room. He really thought he would sleep the day away after last night, but instead he was staring at the television. After flipping between channels a few times he turned it off. Stupid reality shows, he murmured. He didn't felt like doing anything and staring at the blank screen seemed like a good alternative to whatever he was going to do next.
Sure he was restless and usually if something was bothering him he would go and punch something, or even worse, someone, but this time, everything felt different. He didn't crave a fight. He didn't feel angry or frustrated at all. He was just confused, because he knew it wasn't his peace of mind at stake, it was someone else's. He didn't know which bothered him more, the fact that someone else was hurting or that he cared so damn much about it. And why, for the first time in his twisted life should he bother caring for someone other then himself?
Bollocks! He thought and got up from his comfy couch.
He was going to solve this problem the old Spike way
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Over in Hanks office Buffy was sitting behind her desk staring at the dim light that filtered through the dirty windows. A ray of light fell on her face and she let it blind her as she stared directly at it in the hope that everything would look clearer, but it wasn't.
She'd been doing a lot of stupid things since she arrived in L.A and seeing her dad again had certainty obscured her judgment. She was torn, she wanted to do the right thing, but how could she when she was no longer in control of her emotions.
Oh god, what did I do?
The door made a creacking sound as it opened. Buffy raised her head and saw Spike standing in the doorway, She swallowed hard and looked down to her desk, unable to meet his gaze.
Spike got closer to the front of her desk, all the while watching her, with a penetrating stare.
"What are you doing here?" She asked after a moment of unbearable silence.
"Took a stroll, found myself in your neck of the woods."
"Couldn't you have found a better place to be on a Saturday afternoon?" She still wasn't looking at him, just playing with some papers on her desk, trying to look busy.
"Could say the same about you."
"I had something important to do."
"Yeah…like what?"
Buffy stopped what she was doing, gazing blankly at a spot at the end of her desk. What the hell, Buffy, tell him, tell him! . Her mind was screaming
She looked up at him and said without a trace of fear.
"I made a few calls to stop your fight with Combs."
"You did what?" Spike said, not believing his ears.
"You heard me."
"You can't do that…and by can't I mean that you didn't…surely no one took you seriously?" Still shocked he stared at her.
"No sponsors Spike, you know what that means." Her face was frozen as she acted as if it was a business decision and nothing more.
Now he was glaring at her, eyes flaming.
What the bloody hell has possessed you to do such a stupid thing?
Before he could say a word, Buffy got up from her chair, grabbing a few papers and walking to Hank's drawers, to file them.
Spike looked at her for a moment, still trying to figure how to react. He moved closer to her, watching her organizing Hank's files.
"Do you really hate him that much?" He asked trying to control his temper.
"You don't know what you're talking about." Buffy put the files in place with shaking hands, trying not to expose her nervousness.
"I know you've been giving him the cold shoulder since you got here-"
"I barely see him!" Buffy raised her voice.
"So what…? Now you're jealous that I'm spending more time with your daddy?"
Buffy closed the drawer loudly.
"You know nothing about my relationship with my father!"
"I know more then you think" Spike narrowed his eyes at her.
"Yeah well, he's not the man he appears to be… and neither are you for that matter."
The last part of her sentence came out as a murmur, Buffy gazed away.
"What’s that supposed to mean?" Spike asked utterly confused.
Buffy turned to him with a sharp look, her face flushed.
"It means that you're a pawn Spike, you’re nothing but a stupid pawn in Hank's game!"
"You know what luv?" Spike’s voice hardened with each word. Now he was officially pissed off. "I’d rather be a pawn than a vindictive, disgruntled brat who thinks of no one but herself!"
Buffy didn't think twice and slapped him, hard.
Clenching his teeth Spike gave her a threatening stare.
"Get out," she said coldly, looking at his dark blue eyes.
"Fine" Spike muttered bitterly and turned to leave.
Gazing down, Buffy heard Spike’s quick footsteps as he walked to the door. She heard it open, but then it closed loudly. She gazed up and saw Spike walking towards her. Quickly he was in front of her. Grasping her body He pressed her to the wall causing her to gasp in surprise.
"Spike-" She managed to say. "Shut up." He muttered, before crashing his lips to hers.
Moaning into his mouth, Buffy slid her arms around him, not sure whether to caress him or push him away.
But even if she’d wanted to, she couldn't push him away. Spike's strong body was pressed to hers, and both his hands were around her waist holding her in place, trapping her against the wall.
Panting hard Spike broke the kiss giving Buffy the opportunity to shove him to the desk behind him.
He thought she was going to run away, but instead she pushed him hard, making him fall back onto Hank’s desk.
"Like it rough luv?" He smirked.
"Shut up." She repeated his words, in a low tone, resuming the kiss.
Before she noticed, Spike spun her around to the desk causing a few items to fall on the floor. Still kissing her fervently he let her lean back onto the desk and started to push the items away. With one hand behind her back and the other holding Spike by his T- shirt, Buffy helped him to clear the desk quickly and pulled him back over her body.
Buffy felt the warmest feeling. Her whole body lighting up to Spike's touch, Feeling his hands exploring her form made her ache with need and his warm lips tracing little kisses on her neck sent shivers down her spine. That feeling was something she hadn't experienced for a very long time. She couldn't tell what it was, she just knew it excited her and scared her the time.
Spike moved his hand to her breasts and started opening the top buttons of her blouse.
Hearing her moan his name he glanced at her, eyes full of awe.
Trying to find a more comfortable position on the desk, Buffy wriggled her leg beneath Spike's body. Coming in contact with her thigh she heard him groan.
"Oh, I'm sorry, did I hurt you?" She said, concerned.
Taking a moment, Spike gazed at her face, wondering about the truth of her words.
"You much stronger then you think luv" He said intently.
Buffy's face set.
"Am I?" She murmured.
Still surrounded by her warm body, Spike rested his forehead on the crock of her neck. "Yes you are" He inhaled her scent deeply, paused for a moment and looked at her again.
Buffy gazed at him with eyes full of questions but instead of answering Spike just leaned and brushed his lips to hers As he was trying to deepen the kiss, suddenly a voice could be heard behind the door.
"Honey?"
Buffy and Spike froze, staring at each other.
Oh my God.
They got up quickly from the table, starting to put everything in place the way it was, not having enough time before the door opened and Hank stood in front of them with a puzzled look.
"What the hell happened here?" He glared at the two standing in the middle of his messy office.
Leaning to the floor, panting lightly and still holding a bunch of papers Buffy looked up at him.
"Spike and I ….We just…" She gave Spike a desperate look.
"Hank…umm" Spike began to mumble "The thing of it is, we were-"
"I know what this is about" Hank cut through his rambling.
"You do?" Spike raised a brow.
Hank turned to Buffy firmly.
"Got a call from Jim, think we need to talk Buffy."
Buffy gulped and stared at him.
"Dad…"
Hank shivered at the sound of his daughter calling him dad for the first time in years.
Spike gazed at the two "Maybe I should leave you to it…"
When he didn't get any response he started walking past Hank.
"No, stay." Hank stopped him and sent Buffy a sideways glance. "As a matter of fact we all could use a long talk, let's go out somewhere" He turned to the door and then paused.
"Just clean up a little and I'll meet you at the car," he said still lingering near the doorway.
Buffy looked at Spike, he had a peculiar look on his face, she wasn't sure what it was, but it looked entirely different from any look she’d seen before. She didn't give it more thought and finished putting the rest of the items on the desk.
"Oh and honey-" Hank put his hand on the doorknob right before leaving.
"Yes" She complied obediently.
"Button you blouse dear…its cold."
With a smirk forming on his face Hank shut the door, leaving Buffy and Spike stricken and completely speechless.
tbc