Lust

My muse insisted that I start this chapter right now. I hope you enjoy it.

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Senses

He stepped outside into the crisp night air and inhaled deeply. ~ Gonna see my first sunrise in well over a hundred years. ~

Spike walked out of his Crypt trailing the sheet behind himself.

He walked through the woods until he came to a little clearing in the wood atop a hill. ~ Perfect spot to greet the sun. ~ He thought kneeling in the soft dewy grass.
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Buffy awoke again. ~ Something’s wrong. ~ Her senses screamed to her to get up.

Buffy got out of bed and threw on some jeans and a sweatshirt. ~ Four thirty in the morning? ~ She thought catching a glimpse of the red numbers on the face of her alarm clock.

She quickly made her way downstairs and silently left the house.

Buffy closed her eyes when she got outside. She opened them again and let her senses lead her.
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Spike sat silently. ~ I Wonder what would’ve happened if Red hadn’t interfered? ~ He wondered. ~ Would she be in my arms right now? She came to me before the spell. ~
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~ What the hell am I doing here? ~ She wondered staring at the open door to Spike’s crypt. ~ Why is his door open? ~ The Slayer in her taking over and stepping silently inside. She took a quick look and realized he wasn’t upstairs.

She made her way to the lower part of his Crypt. Spike wasn’t there either. Buffy made her way back upstairs. ~ Well I may as well wait for him. ~ She thought plopping down on the chair. She heard paper crinkle underneath her and stood up to retrieve it.

Buffy felt the tears start when she saw her name written elegantly on the envelope. ~ He can’t be gone. ~ She thought desperately.

She picked up the cream colored envelope and tore it open.

Dear Buffy,

I’m sorry Luv. I know you could never choose me. I know you think it was all a spell. But I do love you Buffy. I am in love with you. Meant what I said, I can *not* be without you. I wanted you before Red went and did her sodden spell. Since I’ve had you, Buffy you are all I think about, dream about.

I will be gone by the time you read this, I am truly sorry Goodbye Buffy.

Love Spike.

~ ‘Buffy my spell didn’t say anything about love.’ ~ Willows words replayed them selves softly in her head.

~ Spike. No. ~ She thought desperately, sobs wracking her small body.
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Spike could feel it. The signals that told him the sun would be rising soon. The tingles he got in the base of his spine. His instincts told him to run. To hide. ~ Nope. Can’t bloody exist without her. ~ He thought hanging his head sadly.
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Buffy could feel him. Spike was outside, pretty close by. She looked at her watch. ~ Shit. The sun will be up in an hour. I *have* to find him. ~ She thought desperately.

Buffy dried her tears and quieted her sobs. She closed her eyes and let her senses take over. “Spike.” Buffy growled softly running her fingertips over the mark. She inhaled deeply. ~ I can do this. ~ I can find him. ~ She thought eagerly. She could feel his claim calling to her.

Buffy finally stopped trying to fool herself. ~ I do want him. ~ She thought honestly and let herself be led to him by the claim.
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Spike could smell the sun rising. ~ Half-hour. ~

He closed his eyes and pictured Buffy. Looking up at him with her gorgeous hazel eyes ‘Make love to me Spike.’ Her words replayed in his head.
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Buffy could feel him. She was getting closer. ~ He’s probably in that clearing. ~ She thought suddenly running in that direction
~ I have to find him now. ~ She thought desperately. She was so focused on finding him that she didn’t notice the branches scratching her face and bare arms. She didn’t notice the small traces of blood that welled in some of the deeper scratches.

Buffy broke through the clearing and stopped dead in her tracks. There was Spike. Sitting on his bed sheet in only a pair of jeans ready to greet the sun.

“Spike?” Buffy said softly. She heard a deep growl come from him, it melted her bones and made her knees feel like jelly.

“Spike…please come inside…don’t…don’t do this.” She said tearfully walking closer to him.

“Go away…” He growled turning his face away from her so she wouldn’t see his demon face covered in freshly shed tears.

“Spike…please…come inside with me…” Buffy begged taking hold of his hand and trying to pull him to his feet.

“What for Slayer? I am a monster. You could never love me, when I said I loved you that was real. You were influenced by a bloody spell and not responsible for your actions.” Spike said looking up at her with yellow eyes, wrinkled forehead and elongated teeth. He growled again when he inhaled the scent of her blood.

“Spike…we don’t have time for this...” Buffy said trying again to pull him to his feet.

“You’re hurt.” He growled. He pulled her to her knees beside him. Spike gently caressed her cheek. He could feel her blood calling out to him He wanted to taste her so bad.

“I’m fine…It’s just a few scratches. Spike I …I need you…I’m sorry ok? I lied…I do have feelings for you and they started before Willow did her spell. Which by the way was *only* to get us married and *not* fall in love. We did that all on our own.” She leaned in and kissed him softly.

She rested her head on his shoulder. “Spike I am in love with you.” She whispered in his ear.

“You…you love me slayer?” Spike asked. He pulled back and stared into her eyes unbelievingly.

“Yes Spike. I am in love with you. I want to be with you. If anyone has a problem with that they can go to bloody hell.” Buffy said looking into his eyes.

“Buffy You can’t…”

“But I already do…Spike please….” She choked back a sob. “Please I love you and I need to get you inside…”

Spike nodded and let her help him up. He was walking a little unsteadily. “Are you ok?” Buffy asked concerned.

“Fine Luv, just haven’t eaten in a few days ” Spike replied. ~ I really hope this isn’t a dream. ~ He thought to himself leaning some weight on Buffy

She pulled him closer and held him tightly. Having her hoim uim upright Spike knew that this was real. Where she led he followed. He believed in her.
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