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Out Of Memory, Loss	By : pixel2817 Category: AtS/BtVS Crossovers > Slash - Male/Male > Angel(us)/Xander > Angel(us)/Xander Views: 5977 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 2
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Author: pixel
Title:Out of Memory, Loss.
Part:3/?
Pairing: Xangel
Rating: NC17
Feedback: always welcome
Concrit much appreciated and possibly needed
Disclaimer: Anything you recognise is still owned by Joss et al ~ anything new is mine.
Warnings/Squicks: Willow bashing, violence, light BDSM, bloodplay
Beta(s): don’t have one
Distribution: hell, if anyone wants it just take it. Just drop me a line so I can take a look.

Summary :- This came from a couple of plot bunnies/challenges I saw awhile back. I’m sorry I don’t remember where, but thanks for the ideas.

1)Tabula Rasa wasn’t the first time Willow cast memory spells on Xander, and they all broke with the crystal.
2)Xander has left Sunnydale at some previous point and they had no idea where he’d gone. Willow calls AI for help and Xander answers the phone.

This is set post Tabula Rasa BTVS and Ats Season 3 up to Billy, Darla never comes back and there is no Connor, mainly ‘cos he just doesn’t fit this story.

Chapter Two ~ Trying For Oblivion

They barely made it through the door of the bedroom before Xander was all over Angel, pressing his lips harshly against the older man’s, biting down so he could gain entrance. He ripped the buttons from Angel’s shirt, pulling back momentarily to remove his own. His hands fumbled with the fastenings on Angel’s pants, but as soon as he got them open, Xander sank to his knees and drew Angel’s cock deeply into his throat, causing the vampire to throw his head back and moan. Xander used every trick he’d learnt in the months they’d been together to drive Angel crazy. He drew his teeth lightly along Angel’s hard length and licked at the throbbing vein that ran along the bottom of Angel’s cock; whilst rolling Angel’s balls in one hand and using the other to begin lubricating and stretching Angel’s ass. He swallowed and started to hum as he tried to get Angel’s cock even deeper in his throat. It was too much for Angel and in no time he was gripping Xander’s hair and thrusting harder and harder, fucking Xander’s mouth, before cumming with a muffled yell.

Angel pulled Xander to his feet and kissed him again, loving the fact that he could taste himself in Xander’s mouth. They manoeuvred their way to the bed, removing the last of their clothes without breaking their kiss. Xander was rarely this aggressive when it came to sex and Angel intended to take advantage of this rarely seen dominant side of his lover. Quickly arranging himself on his hands and knees, he looked back over his shoulder at Xander, relishing the way the younger man’s eyes were black with passion and anticipating the moment when that hard dripping cock would press inside him.

Xander came closer, wrapping one arm around Angel’s chest and playing with Angel’s nipples; twisting and pulling at first one, then the other, all the while kissing and licking his way up and down Angel’s spine. He pushed a finger into Angel’s hole, soon followed by a second, twisting and stretching, but only occasionally brushing against Angel’s prostate, the slow build up driving Angel wild all over again. The vampire moaned when he felt the loss of those wonderful fingers, but Xander just draped himself over Angel’s body, pulling Angel’s head back and claiming his lips in a fierce kiss; then pushing just the tip of his cock into Angel. Xander stilled his movements, just holding them both on the edge; enjoying the almost desperate wriggles Angel was making as he tried to get Xander to press deeper inside him.

Releasing Angel’s mouth, Xander braced his arms on the bed and thrust deeply into Angel’s body, his balls slapping against Angel’s ass as he slid home. He began to move in earnest then, making sure he was at just the right angle to hit Angel’s prostate with every thrust. Xander let his body rest along Angel’s back, trusting his lover was strong enough to support both their weight; then he reached around Angel’s body and began caressing Angel’s cock. Gently at first, just teasing touches, intended to inflame the vampire without giving him release; then as Xander felt balls begin to draw up and knew he was close, he started pulling harder wanting them to reach completion together. Xander’s thrusts became harder and he twisted his hips as he thrust for the last time into the cool interior of Angel’s ass, shuddering at the strength of his orgasm; and sinking his blunt human teeth into Angel’s shoulder, the shock of the bite sending Angel over the edge and only moments later he covered Xander’s hand in his seed.

Angel collapsed down onto the bed, as he was left feeling wiped out. Xander pulled his softening cock from Angel’s body and rolled off to lie on the bed next to his lover, licking his fingers clean before leaning in and again sharing the taste with Angel. As he recovered slightly, Angel propped himself up on one elbow and looked at his lover. Much of the tension had gone from Xander’s face, but Angel could still sense the fear and anger beneath the surface. Knowing the only way that Xander was going to get any peace or rest was if the young man was literally worn out, Angel started in on round three of the night. Thanking god for vampiric stamina and recovery, he once again claimed Xander’s lips and began a lazy exploration of his lover’s body. Determined that, for at least this night, he could drive all the pain of the past from Xander’s mind and give him the oblivion he so obviously needed.

It didn’t take long before Xander’s own renewed erection began prodding at Angel’s side, teenage hormones being the next best thing to a vampire’s almost instant recovery time. Angel didn’t acknowledge the hard length; though he touched and caressed just about every other inch of Xander’s body, he wanted to make this last, to drive Xander as wild as his lover had made him. He didn’t listen to Xander’s whispered pleas and continued to ignore the now fully hard and weeping cock.

Drawing back, he reached into the bedside drawer, fumbling round until he grabbed hold of the soft leather cock ring. He moved Xander’s hands up to the headboard and curled his fingers round the bars; telling the younger man that he had to keep them there or he would stop. He moved to Xander’s cock, tantalising it with soft kisses and quick licks, never providing any real stimulation, just teasing the already over-sensitised length. Xander began to beg and plead in earnest, becoming desperate for Angel to suck him off. He screamed in pleasure when the vampire finally deep throated his cock only to groan in frustration when Angel quickly removed his mouth, and Xander realised that his lover had used the opportunity to restrain his cock in the ring.

Not entirely trusting Xander not to try and retake control, Angel used his belt to fasten the man’s, now white knuckled, hands to the headboard. He knew that Xander would tell him if he went too far, but judging by the rush of pheremones the binding caused, they were a long way from reaching that point. He sat back on his heels and gazed down at the bounty spread before him and considered where to start. He wandered if Xander had any idea how beautiful he looked like this, face flushed and passion dazed eyes. His body twisting and turning on the bed as he desperately tried to find some way to satiate his lust, sweat dripping from every muscle. His cock, pressed up against his stomach, pre-cum now oozing from the tip, hard and red and begging to be kissed.

He was everything Angel could ever want, a man who loved every part of him, demon and soul. A fighter who would always be at Angel’s side and a lover that was so close to his every fantasy, you’d think he’d been created just for Angel. He was never giving this up, never letting the past come between them. No matter what happened when the Sunnydalers showed up, Xander was staying here. Angel knew that the next few days could make or break them, but he was determined to use this opportunity to show Xander exactly where, and with whom, he belonged.

Hearing yet another anguished groan ripped from Xander’s lips, Angel realised that he’d been neglecting his lover’s aching body whilst he sat and brooded. Capturing his lover’s lips once more he swallowed the moans from Xander’s mouth, before nibbling his way down Xander’s neck and chest. He slid down and began nipping and biting at one pert nipple, slipping into game face and using a fang to delicately bite the hard nub. Suckling on the sweetest blood he’d ever tasted, he allowed a trickle of the precious liquid to run down Xander’s chest and pool in his navel. Licking the small wound closed Angel then dragged his tongue along the bloody trail, stopping to swirl and dip it into Xander’s bellybutton, before repeating the action with the other nipple.

By now Xander was almost incoherent with desire, pleas and curses falling from his lips as he begged Angel to stop teasing him; but Angel was far from done. Grabbing the lube he slicked his hand and then began to prepare his lover. Dipping his fingers in and out of Xander’s grasping hole, he coaxed him higher and higher, loving the wanton movements his lover began to make with his hips, as he tried to force Angel to stimulate him further. In the end the erotic display and barely whispered pleas drove the vampire to the end of his own control; pushing Xander’s legs further apart and canting his hips, Angel began to push slowly inside his lover. Inch by tortuous inch, he moved so slowly, not wanting it to be over too soon.

Rocking backwards and forwards, he was barely moving and Xander’s writhing body began twisting and straining, trying to force Angel to thrust. Finally Xander worked his hands free of the belt and before Angel could notice what had happened, Xander grabbed him round the waist and rolled them over. Arching his back he began to ride Angel, rolling his hips with every rise and fall of his body, forcing Angel’s cock deeper and deeper inside him.

For awhile Angel was content to watch his lover, enraptured by the mindless lust on Xander’s face, but when the younger man moved his hand towards his own cock in an attempt to free it from its ring, Angel swiftly regained control. Rolling them again, he settled fully into Xander’s body and set a furious pace, fucking him harder and faster than he ever had before. Batting Xander’s hands away, he started stoking Xander’s cock, removing the ring and quickly bringing him to screaming release. Feeling his own climax approaching he mimicked Xander’s actions from earlier leaning in and biting his lover’s neck. Just a few swallows of blood, and the vampire was pushed over the edge, following his lover into oblivion. Both too sated and exhausted to do anything but drift into sleep.

When Angel woke it was still too early to get up and he lay quietly studying his sleeping lover. Looking at the prominent bite mark on Xander’s neck, he couldn’t help but wander how the Sunnydalers would react to their relationship. Usually he would lick the wounds he made in the throes of passion and there’d be no visible reminders by the time Xander woke. Last night had been different, he’d felt Xander begin to pull away from him and the mark was a very visible and physical sign of their relationship. It wasn’t going to scar though, what Angel really wanted was to claim Xander. To see him with a permanent mark, so everyone would know they were together forever.

He knew Xander wasn’t ready for that yet, the younger man was still so skittish and Angel was afraid that if he pushed too hard, Xander would just up and disappear on him. But with Willow and the others almost on their doorstep, Angel couldn’t help but think they’d all be safer if the bond was already in place. He didn’t doubt that Xander loved him, but had finally come to realise that his lover wouldn’t be able to accept the commitment of the bond until he’d dealt with his past. It looked as though that time had been forced upon them and now Angel could only hope that Xander, and their relationship, were strong enough to survive the next few days.

All Angel could do now was try and support Xander, to be there for him and try to protect him as much as he could. Maybe when Xander and Tara confronted Willow and all the secrets were finally brought out into the open, they’d all be free to move on. Free to plan their new lives together. There was one more thing that Angel could do to make the coming fight easier on Xander. Slipping carefully from the bed, so as not to disturb his sleeping lover, he picked up the phone and dialled the number he’d spent the last six months trying to forget.

Nearly giving up when the call wasn’t answered for a full five minutes, Angel found it hard to repress a growl of anger at the sound of the voice he heard when the phone was finally picked up.

“It’s four o’clock in the fucking morning; whoever you are, you’d better have a damn good reason for calling.”

Feeling his hands clench into fists at the sound of the one man he’d always hoped to never see again, Angel ground out. “Lindsey, it’s Angel. Willow’ll be here tomorrow, Xander and Tara need you.”

“I’m on my way. Don’t let her near them ‘til I arrive.”

Carefully placing the phone back, Angel rejoined Xander in their bed. Pulling his lover to him, plastering their bodies together and wrapping his arms round Xander’s waist. Perhaps thinking if he could just hold on tight enough, everything would be ok.

tbc…….
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