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Buffy lay in her bed, staring up at
the ceiling. Spike had run off almost as soon as he'd gotten her back to her
house. She'd wanted him to stay, but he'd barely even listened to her pleas.
She'd wanted him there more than anything. She felt better when he was around. Despite
the fact that she'd originally thought Spike was a kidnapper, and had since
discovered he was really a vampire, she felt safe with him.
Buffy listened to the silence of
the house, knowing that the others had already gone to bed as well, deciding to
try to restore her memories in the morning. She glanced at the clock. She'd
been in bed for almost two hours, and she didn't feel any closer to falling
asleep than when she'd first come upstairs.
She got out of bed, quickly
changing out of her nightclothes before climbing out of her window.

***
*** ***
Spike woke to the comforting
feeling of a warm body pressed up against him and a familiar, pleasant scent
surrounding him. Still groggy from sleep, he pulled the body closer to him,
burying his face in her soft hair.
Suddenly, realization hit, causing
Spike to wake completely. Buffy was in his bed�in his arms. He pulled back,
rolling off the edge of the bed and hitting the ground.
A few moments later, Buffy's face
appeared over the edge of the bed. "Spike, what are you doing on the
floor?"
Spike sat up, rubbing his head.
"What are you doing in my bed?"
"I couldn't sleep in
mine."
"Well, you can't sleep in mine
either!" Spike snapped.
"You didn't seem to mind. As a
matter of fact, it looks like you like it."
As Buffy's gaze trailed down, Spike
realized he was naked�and responding to Buffy's presence. He pulled the sheet
off the bed, wrapping it around himself as best he could. "Buffy, please,
you need to go."
"Why?" Buffy asked,
stretching out on his bed.
"Because if you don't, I'm
going to do something that'll get me staked good and proper the moment you
remember how much you hate me."
"I can't possibly hate you that much," Buffy said. "I
mean, any guy with a body like that� And I know twenty-year-old me isn't
blind."
Spike sighed. "We have a
history, Buffy. It's bad. You just don't remember it."
"Then tell me! Tell me why I'm
supposed to hate you."
Spike closed his eyes, forcing his
body to accept that he was doing the right thing by telling a willing Buffy
lying in his bed something that would make her run away from him. He imagined
himself as dust in the wind, and spoke.
"We were mortal enemies. I
spent the better part of two years trying to make you the third Slayer I
killed."
Buffy's eyes grew wide, and Spike
expected her to bolt. She didn't. "Why didn't you?" she asked softly.
"The government did something
to me, put a chip in my head so I couldn't kill people
anymore."
"But you've been nice to me.
Does the chip make you be a nice vampire?"
"No."
"Then why are you?"
"I'm not�" Spike looked
down. "I'm in love with you." Spike thought of every other time he'd
made that confession, and how Buffy had always looked at him with disgust.
"Wow. That's like totally
romantic."
Spike's head shot up.
"What?"
"Well, it is. I mean, you
should've killed me, but instead you fell in love. It's romantic."
"Pathetic is what it is."
Buffy shook her head. "I don't
think it's pathetic. The vampire and the slayer. It's
like Romeo and Juliet."
Spike cursed under his breath. This
was probably the mindset that led her to fall for Angel. "Romeo and Juliet
died, Buffy."
"So. We could one up them."
"Go home."
"I don't want to."
"Your mates'll
worry."
"I don't care. I'm an adult
now, aren't I? I'd rather stay here."
"I don't want you here."
Buffy pointed to the tent that was
still in the front of the sheet. "He does."
"Dust," Spike thought, "This will lead to me being dust." "Go home,
Slayer."
"But�" Buffy pouted.
Spike started to argue more, but
stopped when he heard someone walking around in his crypt. A few moments later,
Willow came down the ladder. "Spike, we can't find Buffy," she
started. Then, she turned around. Her eyes bugged. "Because
she's apparently here. In your bed. And you're
almost naked."
"We didn't�it's not�don't
stake me." Spike said, backing away from the bed.
"Spike and I were
talking," Buffy said, wanting Willow to just go away.
"I can, um, see that,"
Willow said, blushing. "Buffy, Giles wants you at the Magic Box."
"He wants me in a magic
box?"
"No. The Magic Box is his
store," Willow explained.
"Oh. And Giles is the old
British guy, right?" Buffy asked. "My�um�Watcher?"
"Yeah, that's Giles. We called
him this morning, and he wants to see you so we can figure out what to do about
this spell."
"Are you in trouble?"
Buffy asked.
"A bit," Willow admitted.
"Giles isn't happy with me."
"He shouldn't be too rough on
you. This really isn't too bad," Buffy said, getting off the bed and
standing beside Spike. "Are you coming, too?" she asked him.
"Can't. Sun's up."
"Vampires really catch on fire
in the sun?"
"Yeah."
"Well, that blows. Come and
find me after sundown, see if I'm all grown-up Buffy again?"
"I will." Spike gave
Willow a nervous glance.
"Well, um, let's just go and
let Spike sleep, because that's what he's been doing with Buffy here, right?"
"Right! Been sleeping. Not
taking advantage of fifteen-year-old Buffy."
"Good to know. Come on, Buffy.
Let's go talk to Giles and try to fix this mess."
"Bye, Spike," Buffy said
with a bright smile. "Don't forget to find me after sunset."
"I'll be there, kitten."
"Let's go," Willow said,
tugging on Buffy's arm."
Buffy gave Spike one more glance
before following Willow up the ladder.
Spike sat down on the bed, his
shoulders slumping. He hoped they got Buffy back to normal before she pushed
him past his limit.

***
*** ***
Buffy sat on the counter of the
Magic Box, watching the door. The sun had just set, and she was impatiently
waiting for Spike to show up. She'd met the rest of the people who were
supposedly her friends, but she didn't feel any real desire to spend any time
with them. Anya and Xander were sitting around the table trying to find the demon
that had taken the crystal, while Giles, Tara, and Willow were in the back,
searching for an alternative means of spell reversal. Dawn was staying the
night with a friend, the general belief being that she'd be better off removed
from all of this.
"Hey, Buff, is this the
demon?"
Buffy looked up at Xander, whom
she'd been told had been her friend since she'd moved to Sunnydale years ago.
However, with no memories of this friendship, she'd been finding him rather
annoying, and wondered if her lost memories really made her feel any
differently. "How am I supposed to know? Amnesia, remember?"
"Oh, right."
"But I don't think so. Willow
said it was red, and that one's pink with big green spots."
The bell over the door jingled, and
Buffy turned sharply. As Spike came in, she grinned brightly, running to him
for an enthusiastic hug. "I missed you all day," she whispered.
"Missed you, too,
kitten." He pulled away slightly, looking down into her eyes. "I take
it you're still fifteen."
"Yeah. They've been making with the researchy-ness
all day, with the smelly books and the even smellier spells, but it's been a no
go."
"Hey, Captain Peroxide, hands
off the Buffy."
Xander's outburst pulled Spike's
attention to the fact that his hands were still resting on Buffy's hips. He let
them drop. "Just came by to check on the Slayer," he explained.
"Yeah, well, she's fine. You
can go now," Xander snapped.
"Hey! I asked him to come, and
I want him to stay," Buffy said.
"Buffy, I don't know what he's
told you, but Spike is not someone you can trust," Xander said.
"He told me who he is,"
Buffy said.
"Did he tell you about the
time he chained you to a wall and threatened to let his crazy ex kill you? Or how about the time he made a Buffy robot to use as a
'girlfriend.'" Xander said the last word complete with air quotes.
Buffy looked at Spike in surprise.
"You did that?"
The look in Buffy's eyes hit Spike
hard. He'd liked the trust and playfulness that had been in them earlier. "I�I
did." He turned away. "I'll go now." Spike left before he had to
hear Buffy condemn him. Again.
Buffy looked back at Xander.
"Why did you do that?"
"Do what,
make the psycho killer get away from you? Look, Buffy, you may not remember
this, but Spike is not your friend. He
comes in handy in a fight now and then, but he's still a vampire. He wants to
hurt you."
"And what, you guys are so big
on not hurting me? I'm sorry, but it was one of you who put this spell on me in
the first place. How can I trust any of you?"
"We're your friends!"
Xander replied. "Spike's an evil vampire. If he seems like he's being a
nice guy, it's just because he thinks you're more vulnerable now, and he can
finally get what he wants out of you!"
Buffy thought back to that morning
when Spike had resisted her advances. "You're wrong."
"He did help us this
summer," Anya piped up. "And Buffy wasn't around then, so she
couldn't be the reason for that."
"Anya!" Xander snapped in
a warning tone.
"No, let her talk," Buffy
said. "I mean, I may be a fifteen year old cheerleader from L.A., but I'm
not stupid. I know something's going on that no one's telling me. What happened
that Willow wanted me to forget? Where was I this summer?"
"It's
better we don't talk about that," Xander said.
"It's my life! I may not
remember it, but it still is. How can I trust any of you if you won't tell me
the truth?"
"But you'll trust Spike?"
Xander asked in anger and disbelief.
"Spike's the only person who's
been at all straightforward with me!"
"We've been straightforward
with you."
"Oh yeah, then where's my
mother?"
Xander winced. "Buffy�"
"She's dead, isn't she?"
When both Anya and Xander were silent, Buffy yelled, "Answer me,
dammit!"
"She died last year,"
Anya said. "Aneurysm."
"I need to go," Buffy
said. "I've been here all day. I�I can't take it anymore."
"Where are you going to
go?" Xander asked.
"I don't know. I just need� I
need to not be here."
"Buffy, you can't just wander
around out there in your�condition," Xander said. "You don't know how
dangerous it is out there."
"What does it matter if it's
dangerous?" Buffy asked. "I'm the Slayer, right? Can't I handle
myself?"
"You don't remember how,"
Xander said, grabbing her shoulder in an attempt to keep her from leaving.
"Let me go!" Buffy took
hold of Xander's arm and threw him across the room. Her hand went to her mouth,
surprise coursing through her at what she was capable of. "I'm
sorry," she muttered before running from the shop.

***
*** ***
Spike looked up sharply when he
heard a small tap at his crypt door. He didn't know anyone who bothered to
knock. Usually, a good, swift kick seemed to do.
Another knock, then the door slowly
opened. Buffy peeked in, and Spike could tell she'd been crying. "What's
wrong?" he asked.
Buffy walked in, shutting the door
behind her. "Everything."
"Buffy, what Xander said
earlier�"
"Tell me honestly, did you do
those things?"
"I told you I did."
"Why?"
"Because I'm
an idiot." Buffy
chuckled, and Spike smiled a little. "The robot thing, I don't know� I
just wanted you so much, and I thought it was a way for me to have you. Dumb, I
know, but I don't always think before I act. And as for the chaining you up
bit, I thought it was the only way I could get you listen to me tell you how I
feel about you. And I swear, Buffy, I never would've let Drusilla actually hurt
you. Please, believe me about that."
"I do." They were silent
for a moment, and then Buffy pointed to the glass he was holding in his hand.
"Is that blood?"
Spike held the glass up so she
could see it better. "Bourbon."
Buffy walked over, sitting in
Spike's lap and resting her head against his chest. He froze for a moment
before setting his drink down and wrapping his arms around her. "My mom's
dead," Buffy said after a few minutes.
"They tell you after I left?"
"Yeah. I had to practically force it out of
them."
"I'm sorry, pet."
"It's strange. It doesn't seem
real. I have no memory of her dying. In my mind, she's just supposed to pick me
up from cheerleading practice at the end of the day. But that was five years
ago, and she's gone now, and it hurts."
"Course it hurts. She was your
mum. And Joyce�she was one amazing woman."
"You knew my mom?"
"Yeah."
"Were you sad when she
died?"
"I was. She was one of the few
people in this world who never treated me like a monster, and that meant a lot
to me."
"Did I treat you like a
monster?"
"Sometimes. Usually when I deserved
it. But you also know how to treat me like a man." Spike closed his
eyes, remembering the night he'd said something similar to her�the same night
he'd failed her.
"Everything's so mixed up. I
keep looking at these people I'm supposed to love, and I feel nothing. They
tell me they're my friends�family even�but I look at them and see strangers. It
scares me."
"Does that go for me,
too?"
"No. I look into your eyes,
and I feel something. All day, all I wanted was to be back here with you. And�and
it's strange, but I get the feeling that it's more than me just not remembering
them. There's something else, too. Something I can't quite grasp."
"You felt alienated from them
before the spell," Spike told her. "You'd been spending a lot of time
with me instead. That's why you woke up in my crypt that night."
"What happened, Spike? I know
something bad happened to me this summer, and I need to find out what."
"Willow may have had a point
in wanting you to forget that, luv."
"No. Don't you do that, too. You've been upfront about everything I've asked you.
Don't stop now."
"You died."
"Huh? I
what?" Buffy pulled back, gaping at him in disbelief.
"You died. Sacrificed yourself for Dawn. Your friends brought you back a few
months later, but this whole summer you were dead and buried."
"So that's what she wanted me
to forget�that I died?"
"That, and well, Willow and
the others think you were trapped in a hell dimension."
"They think I went to Hell?
Geez, what kind of friends are they? Wait�did I go to Hell? I mean, I've done
some bad things, like the time I stole a pack of gum from the gas station, but�"
"No, pet, you didn't go to
Hell. But they don't know that. You've been distant since you got back, and
they think you've been having a hard time adjusting from whole hellish torture
bit, but the truth is, you were in Heaven�and they pulled you out. Being here,
being the Slayer again, you said this is the real Hell for you."
Buffy stared for a moment, trying
to wrap her head around what he'd said. She couldn't really. Without the first
hand knowledge she'd had with her lost memories, it was impossible. "How
do you know that?"
"You told me. Right after you
came back. Guess you had to tell someone, and you didn't want to tell the ones
who did the resurrecting. Guilt and whatnot."
"I was dead. And in Heaven. That's�a lot to take in."
"I know."
"Spike?"
"Yeah?"
"I'm hungry."
Spike chucked. "Not quite what
I was expecting you to say. All I have here is blood. Oh, and
Whetabix."
"Wheata-what?"
"Wheatabix.
It's cereal. Kinda like a big block of crumbly wheat bits."
"Ew. Stop right there." Buffy gave Spike
her sweetest expression�the one that made all the boys in school desperate to
do her bidding. "Could you go get me something to eat?"
Spike looked into her eyes and knew
he'd do anything for her. "What do you want, kitten?"
"Could you get me a hamburger?
I usually try to avoid the greasy, but I'm in need of comfort food."
"Don't worry about what you
eat, pet. Slayer metabolism. You can eat whole pizzas in
one sitting and never gain a pound. I've seen it."
"Ooh. In that case, I want ice
cream, too."
Spike smiled, resisting the urge to
press a kiss on the tip of her nose. "Whatever my girl
wants."
"Am I?"
"Are you what?"
"Your
girl."
"Buffy�"
"I wanna be, you know."
"I want you to be, too, but
you can't be. Not without your memories."
"But�"
Spike cut her off. "I'll make
you a deal. You still wanna be my girl when you remember everything, and you
will be." Spike tried not to let the pain he felt then seep into his
words. He knew it was just something to say to placate Buffy, and that as soon
as she was herself again, the last thing she'd want would be to be "his
girl."
"Okay, I guess I can live with
that for now," Buffy said. "So where's my guilt-free junk food?"
Spike chuckled, lifting her off his
lap so he could stand. "I'm on it." He put on his duster, then went to one of the sarcophaguses, lifting the lid and
retrieving a sword. He handed it to Buffy. "If anything demony comes in,
decapitate first and ask questions later. Unless it's a guy with a lot of skin�answers
to the name of Clem. He said he'd be coming by later to bring some poker
winnings he owes me."
Buffy nodded. "Right.
Kill unless it's bringing power winnings."
"You got it." Unable to
resist any longer, Spike placed a chaste kiss on her forehead. "I'll be
back soon."
"I'll be waiting."
Spike knew the thought of Buffy
waiting for him in his crypt would be enough to ensure a speedy trip.

***
*** ***
Buffy looked up hopefully when the
door to the crypt opened again. Spike had only been gone a few minutes, but for
all she knew he had some kind of vampire teleportation power. She frowned when
she saw it was Giles. "Oh, it's you. Watcher dude."
"Buffy, you need to come home
this instant. You cannot spend the night in a vampire's crypt."
Buffy crossed her arms in front of
her. "I can, and I will."
"This is ridiculous. I don't
know what sort of lies Spike has told you, but he is
not your friend."
"Ugh. You and Xander must take
some sort of Spike bashing lessons. And you want to talk about lies�Spike's the
only one who hasn't been telling them. It's been you people that's
been all big with the whole 'hide the truth from Buffy' thing."
"We've only been working in
your best interest. And we've also been worried sick about you since you threw
Xander across the room and then ran away."
"Look, the Xander throwing
incident was an accident. I didn't realize the Slayer gig made me that strong.
But I don't want to be with you guys. I want to be with Spike. He's making this
whole situation bearable. So go on, work on reversing the spell or whatever,
and I'll be right here."
If there was one thing Giles had
learned in his time as Buffy's watcher, it was that he'd have a better chance
at trying to teach a twenty-year-old dog to dance on his hind legs than he
would ever convincing Buffy to do something when she was in one of her stubborn
moods. "When you have your memory back, you'll see how foolish this
behavior is."
"Maybe. But right now, this is where I want to
be."
"You know where the people who
really care about you are if you need us."
"I know where you are,
yeah."
"Remember this, Buffy�Spike is
a cold-blooded killer."
"Got it. Killer vampire out
getting me dinner and ice cream."
"Buffy, if Spike is being nice
to you, it's only because he wishes to, um, well, he wants to�"
"Bang me 'till I can't walk
straight? You can say the word, Giles. I'm fifteen�not a nun. Besides, I grew
up with cable."
Giles blushed. "Yes, well�"
"Look, think what you want
about Spike. I can see the truth."
"Buffy�"
"Just go. I'm tired, and I'm
hungry, and if you really know me as well as you claim, then you know how
cranky that makes me."
"Right. Do be careful."
Buffy flopped back in Spike's
chair. "I'll be fine."
Giles gave her one last pleading
glance before leaving.

***
*** ***
When Spike came back, Buffy was on
the floor playing with three black and white kittens. "I take it Clem came
by," Spike said, putting Buffy's ice cream in his freezer.
"Yeah. Why do you play poker for kittens?"
Spike looked down. "Well, because,
um, kittens�um, we�well�"
Buffy guessed where he was going
with that. "Ew, Spike. Eating kittens is gross and totally not cool."
Spike had the decency to look
sheepish. "I am a vampire, after all."
"Well, you can't eat any more
kittens. Especially not Pete, Frank, and Larry."
"You named them Pete, Frank,
and Larry?"
"Of course. Why?"
"I just figured you'd be more
the type to name your car Mister Fluffy Paws or something."
"Nope. I think you should give your pets good,
solid people names. I mean, how would you like it if
people called you� Wait, never mind. Spike's one of the top ten names for a
dog."
"Oi! No insulting my name, Buffy."
"Oh, come on, you're asking
for it when you call yourself 'Spike.' I mean, really. What's your real
name?"
"William."
"I like that. Can I call you
William?"
"No."
"Why
not?"
"'Cause it's a bloody poncey name, that's why."
"I have no idea what that
means, but I don't agree. William's a good strong name�like�" Buffy
thought about the last thing they'd been studying in her history class, "William
the Conqueror."
Spike chuckled. "Thanks,
pet."
Buffy grinned. "So, Willie,
where's my hamburger?"

***
*** ***
Spike smiled contentedly. Buffy was
sitting in his lap as they watched television, the carton of ice cream they'd
shared on the floor at their feet. Something inside him said that the Big Bad
should not be happy just to hold the Slayer in his arms like this, but Spike
didn't care. Having Buffy this close, both physically and emotionally, was all
he could ever hope for.
Buffy yawned, and Spike frowned. He
didn't want this to end, but he knew it had to eventually. "Tired,
sweetheart?"
"Yeah, it's been a long
day."
"You want me to walk you home
then?"
Buffy looked at him shyly. "I
was kinda hoping I could stay here."
Spike thought back to how hard it
had been for him to have Buffy in his bed that morning. "I'm not sure
that's such a good idea�"
"Please? I'll be good, I promise."
"It's not you I'm worried
about."
"I don't want to go back home.
I don't know any of them, and I hate it there."
Spike sighed. He knew he was
entirely love's bitch, but he couldn't tell her no. "Fine. But, please, don't try to tempt me, all right?
You may not realize it now, but memoryful Buffy will stake me if we do
anything."
"I don't think I would, but
okay. No fooling around."
"Thanks, pet." Spike
questioned his sanity for a moment when he realized he was thanking Buffy for
promising not to try to have sex with him, but then he reminded himself that it
was the safest route. And hey, maybe this would earn him a thank you kiss, like
when Glory had tortured him. That was always something to hope for�
Buffy and Spike went down to the
lower level, with Buffy insisting they bring the kittens along with them. Once
down there, Spike lit a few candles so Buffy could see.
"Spike?"
"Yeah?"
"Can I maybe have one of your
t-shirts to sleep in? It would be more comfortable."
The thought of Buffy in his clothes
brought all sorts of thoughts to Spike's mind. "Yeah,
sure." He rummaged through his drawers, then
tossed her one of his black shirts. As she started to undress, he turned his
back to her, reminding himself again just how much he didn't want to be dust.
"I'm decent now."
Spike looked back to see Buffy
sitting on his bed, wearing one of his shirts. It was anything but 'decent.' It
like one of his bloody wet dreams come to life. He
swallowed, then took off his boots and belt before
joining her.
"Do you usually sleep with that
many clothes on?"
"I am tonight."
"I saw it all this
morning."
"That's not the point. And you
promised to behave."
"Sorry." When Spike
continued to lie a good bit away from her, his body
stiff and awkward, she asked, "So is holding me not allowed, too?"
"Probably shouldn't be."
"I need to be held, Spike.
Please."
Spike took a moment to calm himself
before rolling over, taking Buffy in his arms. She nestled against him
immediately, and he brushed a soft kiss to her hair. He wanted this to be real,
wanted it to be the Buffy who remembered him�and wanted this still.
But it wasn't, and for that moment,
Spike was content with what he had.

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