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Once More With Feeling	By : TiffersTaffy Category: -Buffy the Vampire Slayer > Het - Male/Female > Buffy/Giles Views: 4209 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter
2: Feelings Untold

Giles
suddenly found himself downstairs, in the kitchen, sitting across
from Dawn. Neither of them had spoken a word since they had walked
down from the top of the stairs. Dawn seemed to follow his every
move as he sipped on a cup of tea he had made. He sighed as he ran
a hand through his hair, before looking back up at Dawn, in her
classic, arms across the chest, and eyes looking like they were
trying to read your soul, and what your intentions where posture.
He looked down at his tea, and became the first to speak up.

"Dawn,
you said we needed to talk, yet you haven't spoken a word. Now,
what is it that's on your mind?"

Dawn
huffed at him as she ran her fingers through her hair, before
looking back over at him. How could she put into words what she was
feeling? She did not know how to say what she was thinking, or
feeling. God was this all really happening or was it just some part
of an old nightmare, that she kept reliving in her head repeatedly
and over again. She felt a tear slip down her face, as she rubbed
it, to see the worry in Giles' aged green eyes.

"Giles….I
want you to tell me the truth. I saw something last night…something
I did not really like. Something that disturbed me and it was in
your eyes….."

She
was practically sobbing now. She was worried about her sister. What
would he do to her? Would Giles want to be with Buffy? Buffy was
too young for him, and Buffy saw him like a father, not someone she
could spend the rest of his life with.. It just wasn't right.
Nevertheless, if anyone deserved to be happy, and loved, it was
Giles. She loved him more than she loved any of the men that had
come along in Buffy's life. Maybe they would be the perfect couple.
Maybe Giles would be someone who could take care of her sister, and
love her for the rest of her life. Nevertheless, Dawn was not
psychic, she did not know how the others would accept a romantic
relationship between Buffy and Giles, and Dawn was not even sure if
she would approve. All she knew was that she loved the both of
them.

"And
what would that be Dawn?"

Giles
asked nervously, as he took off his glasses, and began to clean
them with the hem of his gray sweater, that made him look older
than dirt. He put his glasses back on to see Dawn, practically
shivering through the tears.

"You
love her! You love Buffy the way Angel did….and Riley….and
even Spike, in his stalker tendencies. You want Buffy. You want my
sister…"

"Dawn…"

"Don't
even try lying to me! I know it!"

She
stood up, as the stool she had been sitting on fell to the floor.
Giles stood up after her, watching as she backed away from him,
shivering. It was as if she was afraid of him all of the sudden. It
troubled the older man, his face remaining calm even through all
this emotion. It must have been from all his British roots.

"Dawn,
I really don't know how you got this insane notion into your brain,
but its very far from being true. Buffy always has been and always
will be like a daughter to me."

"YOU'RE
SUCH A LIAR!"

He
tried to step over to her, but she pulled back, pushing him up
against a wall. He got up as he walked towards her again, trying to
calm her down. Instead, she screamed at the top of her lungs,
calling him a liar once more, before running up the stairs with
tears streaming down her face. He watched the young teenager go,
who seemed to be in so much pain, because they both knew that what
he had just said was a flat out lie. He felt the pain in his back
from being thrown up against the wall, and the pain in his heart
from having to lie to Dawn. He had always felt more than just a
fatherly love for Buffy. He was just being an insufferable British
git. However, he could never tell her the truth. She would never
understand. He barely understood his feelings as it was.

He
sighed deeply as he walked his way back over to a stool by the
small table in the kitchen, where his tea was. He took a sip of his
tea as he heard someone coming down the steps. He looked up as his
eyes met his Slayers. He stood up, and smiled, as she nodded at
him.

"What
was all that yelling about, Giles? It woke me up."

"I'm
very sorry, Buffy. Dawn and I just had a little bit of a
misunderstanding."

"Sounded
to me like more that a little bit. What was it about?"

He
shook his head as he watched her make her way over to the fridge,
to find something to eat for breakfast. The young blonde-haired
woman, who was normally so alive and bubbly, was barley showing a
smile. She looked drained, and extremely exhausted and it took all
his energy to make sure his body did not move. Even if he felt like
running over to her, and wrapping his arms around her and never
letting go, he knew he shouldn't. He wanted to comfort and cuddle
her, until she was ready to let go of her mother.

"It's
nothing to trouble your mind with, Buffy. Just some teenager
concerns….false concerns."

She
nodded as she pulled out a bottle of orange juice, and headed to
the cabinet to find her a glass. Giles watched the younger woman as
she poured the continents of the bottle into the glass. Giles
gulped as he felt his blood boil at the look of her back, curving
into her bottom. He felt his whole body shiver in ungodly ways, as
he turned himself back to his tea, patting his head with a towel.
God, how could she suddenly make his body ache for her so? Maybe it
was because something deep down inside him may have been finally
admitting the feelings he had for his Slayer. The feelings had
always been there, in some shape or form, they where just not
admitted until recently.

Seconds
later, he felt her sit down beside him, slurping on her orange
juice. Sometimes, she was so childlike, and yet sometimes she could
be a very grown up woman. Now, with the crinkles near his green
eyes showing a small smile, accompanying it with a laugh. She
stopped drinking, and looked back over at him, titling her head to
the side.

"And
what is so funny, Mr. Watcher?"

"My
slayer, still acting as though she's 16…"

She
smiled and shrugged her shoulders, before putting the cup down in
front of her. He laughed once more at her, as he felt her shove
him.

"I'm
so not acting like a 16 year old!"

"No,
at this moment you're acting like a three year old."

She
rolled her eyes, as he laughed once more, before she looked back
down at her orange juice, with a serious look on her face. She knew
that even though they where kidding around, she still had a very
important job to do. Not only was she the Slayer, destined to
protect the world from all the evils that had ever tried to destroy
it and those that would come in the future. But she was also now a
single parent to her little 14 year old sister named Dawn. She did
not know if she would be able to be a good mother, find a job,
finish College at UC Sunnydale, take care of her little sister, and
teach her how to be a good person. Moreover, there were the bills
that would need to be paid, and groceries, and other things that
would be required to take care of a teenager. She did not know if
she could do it. She felt his hand on her shoulder as she turned
back over to him.

"Giles…"

"Buffy,
I'm not going to leave you. You're going to be just fine…"

She
felt the tears fall as he pulled her into his arms, and her head
fell to his shoulder, to listen to his heart as she cried her eyes
out. She knew that it would take a long time for the hole in her
heart to heal, but as long as she had Giles, her watcher and best
friend, by her side she would be all right. She looked up as she
heard a voice at the doorway to the kitchen. Giles pulled away from
her, and got up, turning to the cabinet, to pretend to make more
tea.

"Dawn?"
"Buffy….."

"What
is it?"

"Xander
just called. Anya and he are coming over…"

"Oh.
That's nice."

"And
Willow and Tara. They're going to cook us a big breakfast…"

Giles
turned around to watch the two talking, not saying a word. All he
knew was that he was lost in his thoughts. A relationship with
Buffy, a woman a little more than half his age, would be very
disturbing to her friends and to himself as well. Yet, it was
something that he craved more than anything else. Buffy was an
intoxicating woman. The way she looked, and spoke, and cared from
everyone. She was beautiful, inside and out, and the thought of
being able to win her heart caused him more pleasure than anything
else in the whole world. Buffy turned to Giles, smiling at him
softly, before looking back over at her sister.

"That
sounds like fun, Dawn. Really, it does. It will help get my mind of
things…"

"Good…because
anything to get both of your minds off this will do us all a bit of
good."

Dawn
looked over at him after he spoke, with that same look in her eyes.
Giles was becoming too…..too much like men Buffy had dated.
He was sort of acting like Riley, whom Dawn had cared for more than
anyone else Buffy had ever dated. Riley had been a sweet man, who
was very devoted to Buffy, and loved her with all his heart.
Nevertheless, Buffy had not felt the same. Maybe it was the same
situation she was in with Giles, but Buffy had no idea of how her
Watcher felt for her. Only Dawn did, and it meant that she would
have to keep an eye on him. She did not trust him. Would he really
take care of her sister if they got together? Would they be happy,
and would the be good for each other? Would it be anything other
than lust?

Dawn
did not know much about anything, but she knew that Buffy and Giles
loved each other, and that it might not have been too bad if they
were together. Buffy needed someone strong, handsome, and
protective. Giles was all those things and more. Maybe if Dawn
trusted him to take care of her sister, maybe they would be just
what they both needed. After all, she loved them both dearly, and
wanted them to be happy. She smiled softly over at Giles, nodding.
He did not know by what she meant, but she would ask her about it
later.

"Guess
who's here?"

A
man's voice called from the front room. Dawn grinned as she ran for
the door. Giles looked back over at Buffy as the two walked out of
the kitchen almost side by side, with there hands brushing. It sent
Giles pulse to racing, and Buffy felt something too, something she
had never felt before. It disturbed her, but she tried not to think
about it as they arrived in the front room, to see Anya and Xander
standing there.

"I
have come baring pancake batter!"

Xander
laughed softly, as Dawn hugged him. Xander was worried about the
Dawnster, as well as the Buffster. He did not have any idea of how
they felt. They had lost their Mom, someone who was one of the most
important people in their young lives. That was why he felt he had
to be with them, and help them through every day, one-step at a
time. As Dawn moved away from him, Buffy walked over, wrapping her
arms around him. Xander had always been there for her, and he would
continue to always be there. It was what best friends are for.

"Thanks
for coming, Xand. It's really sweet of you."

"Xander
just thought we should be here….in your time of grieving…"

"Yeah,
Buff. What are friends for, if not being there when you need them?"

After
Anya spoke up softly as Buffy nodded, reaching over and giving her
a hug as well. Buffy felt lucky to have such good friends, whom she
could always count on. Buffy moved away as Dawn followed Anya and
Xander into the kitchen to start the breakfast. Giles had stayed by
the doorway that leads from the kitchen to the living room. He
could see that Buffy was still depressed, and it would take her a
while to get over her loss, which really was not a good thing. With
Glory looking on the prowl, for the Key, Buffy and Dawn could not
have lost their mother at a worse time. Buffy needed to be alert,
just in case Glory decided to pay another house call. It filled his
heart with worry, for Dawn but more so for Buffy. Glory was the
most powerful being she had been up against, and they did not know
much about her. Only what the council could uncover, which wasn't
much to go on.

Buffy
turned to look at him, tilting her head to the side. She sensed
something.

"Giles?"

He
looked up to meet Buffy's blue-gray eyes, cautiously. He titled his
head, wondering what it was.

"Yes,
Buffy?"

"What's
wrong?"

"I'm….just
worried. With the loss of your mother, it would be the perfect time
for Glory to come in, and hurt you…and Dawn."

She
nodded, looking into those green eyes that she had known all to
well over the years. She knew that he was worried; by the little
wrinkles he had in the corners of his eyes and just the look of his
face in general. She walked over to him, and for some reason,
touched his face softly. A feeling crept through her body once
more, that felt like electricity, a feeling she had only felt when
she had touched Angel this way. She pulled it away, shaken by her
feelings, but looked up at him again.

"Don't
worry, Giles. I will grieve and move on. Glory will not be able to
hurt me. Trust me."

He
nodded, looking down at her, longing for her hand to be at his
cheek again. The feeling that had run through his body of passion
and desire had felt very wrong and yet, he wanted it to happen
repeatedly. He knew it now. Dawn was right. He was in love with
Buffy Anne Summers. He would have to talk to her again later, and
apologize.

"I
do trust you."

The
two of them looked up as the door opened to reveal Tara and Willow,
loaded with goodies and other things. Buffy smiled as Willow sat
her bag down on the side table. Buffy walked over, giving her
friend a hug. Willow had always been her best friend, and probably
always would be. And she couldn't be happier that she was sticking
by her side in such a horrible time.

"Thanks
for coming, Will."

"Your
welcome, Buffy…."

Tara
smiled as she gave Buffy a hug as well. Tara knew what Buffy was
going through, being there she when she was 17. Therefore, Buffy
had rather bonded to Tara, closer than they had ever been before.
As Buffy pulled away, the pair walked towards the kitchen to give
Xander the food. Buffy turned back, to see that Giles had left the
room. It puzzled her, but she shrugged it off. Maybe he just wanted
to be alone.

Giles
let the cold-water drip down his face, splashing it to drive away
the feelings he could not help but feel. He wished he could leave,
go back home. It would be better for the both of them.
Nevertheless, he knew that Buffy needed him now. He could not just
abandon her now in her time of need. She was so hurt, and alone.
Her mother passing was leaving a hole in her heart that he did not
know if he should help fill. He looked up to see Dawn standing in
the doorway. She smiled, before closing the door behind her. He
reached for a towel, drying off his face, before looking back over
at him.

"Giles."

"Dawn,
you were right. I do have feelings for your sister."

Dawn
nodded as she moved over, reaching up and giving him a hug. She
hoped he would understand that it was ok to love her sister. It was
not wrong. Love was never wrong, and age was only a number. It may
not have been something the rest of the world would agree on, but
she knew she did. She pulled away as he smiled, patting her on the
shoulder.

"Its
ok, Giles. Really. Buffy needs someone to take care of her, and
love her with all his heart. I know you would be the kind of person
she needs. So, don't worry. I wouldn't freak out."

"But
if Buffy ever found out…"

"I
don't think it would bother her all that much."

Giles
looked down at Dawn, reading her eyes. Buffy?Not mind? How could
that be possible? He was her Watcher, her friend, and that was as
far as the feelings where suppose to go. He sighed as he shook his
head, walking over to the tub and sitting down on the edge. Dawn
sat down on the toilet beside him.

"Dawn,
Buffy…is probably one of the most beautiful people I know,
inside and out. But, the concept of actually being with her….being
able to touch her the way Riley and Angel did…It doesn't
seem possible."

"Why?
Giles, she loves you. And I know she's been feeling something
between you too lately, just like you. I've seen it in her eyes."

"Really?"

He
titled his head as she nodded, giving him yet another warm smile.
She was trying to give him support, so that he wouldn't give up.
Buffy needed someone as strong, kind, and loving as Giles, and
Giles needed someone to love him and take care of him. To Dawn,
they seemed like the perfect match. They where two people that she
loved with all her heart, and she wanted nothing more that for them
to be happy.

"Yes.
Just give it some time. She'll come around."

He
smiled as she got up, giving him a quick hug, before walking out of
the bathroom, turning towards the steps. He sighed, rubbing his
face with the towel, before getting up, grabbing his glasses, and
following the younger girl towards the smell of pancakes and
waffles.
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