Need

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Spike freaked. Angel had taken him back to the hotel to feed, and he caught her scent. ~ Buffy. ~

"Where is she?" Spike turned yellow eyes on Angel.

"She's not here." Angels said softly. She left for England."

Spike glanced around. He didn't believe she was gone. He could smell her. He followed her scent and found her room. ~ Buffy. ~ He thought silently. Spike closed his eyes, savoring her scent. ~ Miss you so much Luv. ~ He thought sadly.

He went off to find Angel to find out why the hell she went to England.
~~~~~`
I felt restless. I wanted to run again like I did last night. Till I burned and ached and felt alive. But I have things to do today.

I knocked softly on Giles door.

"Oh Buffy do come in." He said to me. I could see his apprehension.

"What's the what Giles?" I asked leaning against the kitchen table.

"Well it seems...it seems that you must return to LA." Giles said. I watched him polishing his glasses and I smiled. It felt good to s.
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It's been way too long since I really wanted to smile. "It's ok Giles. I'll go." I said softly.

"Buffy you must...really?" He asked raising his eyebrows at me. He was obviously expecting a fight.

"Yeah. I'm...I'll be ok. Giles. I think I need to talk to Angel anyway. Apologize for the way I treated him when we stayed with him." I smiled again, I was ready. If I would have known...I would have never left. But I didn't have a clue.

I didn't call Angel to tell him I was coming. What's the point? He told me my room at the hotel would be held for me always. So I figured I'd get off the plane and go straight there.

Figured I'd sleep, then talk to Angel when he got back for Wolfram and Hart.
~~~~~`

"When did she leave?" Spike asked walking into Angel's room.

"She left two weeks after...after the battle." Angel sighed.

"Wanna see her... Wanna talk to her." Spike said softly.

"That's gonna be tough." Angel said regretfully.

"You can't keep her from me!" Spike growled.

"She's not mine to keep... or yours. She moved on Spike."

"Says you. You got no idea what we had." Spike growled

"You never had her."

"More than you, you poncy..." Spike growled and left the room. He spent the night in Buffy's bed. Feeling her around him, inhaling her scent.
~~~~~`

"How's she doing?" Willow asked.

"She's leaving for LA." Giles smiled. "I think she's gonna be ok. I'm glad we stopped her from patrolling since...that first night...it's a good thing there were a few of them there that night." Giles shuddered at the memory.

"Giles...she was confused. She was hurt. She loved him. I know you don't want to hear it but she did. He died to save the world and that only made her love him more. She wanted to..."

"I know." Giles sighed. "But she does seem to be dealing with it better."

"She's just trying to live. For him. He saved the world so she could live in it. This time he did save her." Willow said with tears in her eyes.
~~~~~`

I over heard their conversation, I walked into Giles' place with my carry on bag and my three times too large purse. I was going to tell him I was ready to leave for the airport when I heard them talking.

I listened to what they had to say, Willow was right, he did save me this time. He saved the whole world.

When I was on my flight, heading to LA, I mys myself remember that night. The night I almost died again. And believe me when I say I really wanted to.
~~~~~`

"Angel please...please I just need to hear her voice...just to know she's ok..." Spike was begging again. As he had, on the way to Wolfram and Hart every day for the last six months.

Sometimes he'd try to say Angel was keeping him from her cause he knew she'd chose Spike. Sometimes...well there were lots of things Spike came up with.

Angel finally blew up. "Spike god damn it. She has a chance at normal. Why do you want to ruin that for her?" He yelled grabbing the vampire by the lapels and pushing him up against the elevator.

"I love her Angel. I...love her so much she's all I bloody think about. I need her and want her and it bloody hurts." Spike said softly.

Angel's anger dissolved. He let Spike go. "If you love her. If you really do, let her be happy." He said calmly. The doors to the elevator opened and they both stalked out headed in opposite directions.
~~~~~`

I remember that night on patrol. The night Giles and Willow were referring to. We were walking through the cemetery, patrolling. I felt the tingle that told me there were vampires around and I ran towards the source.

+~+~+~
I saw the vampire leaning over his prey, fangs buried deep in her throat. "Let her go." I said calmly as I tapped him on the shoulder.

I didn't expect him to be so vicious. He surprised me and back handed me. I fell to the ground and he was on top of me.

He leaned in close, his human visage in place. "You wanna be my next meal pet?" He growled seductively.

His eyes were dark, almost black. I could feel the coolness of his skin, the vampire in him making me think of Spike. I closed my eyes for a second. To get my bearings, to remember that *my* vampire was in heaven.

It would be so nice to join him there. To be in his arms again. I felt him leaning forward and turned my neck, exposing tender flesh to him. ~ Do i mis miss Spike. God I miss him so much. It's too hard to live without him. ~

I felt tears rolling down my face through closed eyes. He was almost close enough...just a little more.

Suddenly the weight disappeared. Dust floated around me. Sticking to the tear lines on my face. I opened my eyes and looked up to see two of them. Slayers. Looking down at me.

They both reached out a hand and ed med me to my feet.

"Thanks" I whispered.
+~+~+~

I saw something in their eyes besides their tears. Understanding and sympathy. It was too much for me. I didn't patrol again after that.

Although it wasn't till later I got home and looked in the mirror that I realized *why* they both had tears in their eyes.

Because of the way the vampire dusted, and because my tears were fresh, I looked like I was crying ashes.

A Slayer crying ashes for her vampire lover who died saving the world.

I sighed as my plane touched down.
~~~~~`

Spike was restless being at Wolfram and heart. He decided to take one of Angel's cars back to the Hyperion. ~ At least there's a little peace and bloody quiet there. ~ He thought sullenly.

~ Can be alone with my thoughts. Of her. Don't' even have a bloody office here to help with that. ~ He didn't tell anyone he was leaving he just roared out of the parking garage in one of Angel's fancy cars.
~~~~~`

I got off the plane and made my way to the hotel. No one knew I was coming so I took a taxi.

I walked into the hotel and no one was around so I went up to my room. I was pretty tired so I put on a long T-shirt and threw my bags in the closet.

I didn't look around or I would have noticed things were a little different.
I would have noticed *his* things laying around my room.

I crawled into bed and sighed. I closed my eyes and dreamt of saving my vampire again.
~~~~~`

Spike could smell her as soon as he walked ithe the hotel. He broke into a run and folloher her scent. He stopped at the closed door. Spike stood there for a second to calm himself.

He placed his palm flat against the door. He could feel her just on the other side calling to him.

Spike opened the door and looked around. She was there.

Spike's un- needed breath caught in his throat. He could see her laying on his bed. He tried to forget the fact that she didn't even know that he existed anymore.

He looked at her, curled up on the bed. A frown marring her features in heeep.eep.

Spike removed his duster and boots. He took off his shirt and crawled into bed beside her. ~ Love you so much Buffy. ~ He thought kissing her temple gently.

Spike wrapped his arms around her and held her. ~ I know I'm being selfish, but I don't bloody care! ~ He thought to himself, elated that she was in his arms once again.
~~~~~`

I knew I was dreaming. We got out of the crumbling school and onto the bus. Then suddenly I was in his arms. God it felt so real. I could feel his coolness wrapped around me. Holding me. Comforting me.

Weird thing was I could smell too too. The leather, whiskey and smoke that made up my vampire.

There was something else to. My vampire sense was screaming at me that *he* was here. The special tingle that belonged to him. I didn't believe it. I didn't want this dream to end.

It felt so *real*.

I felt myself waking up, and his arms were still around me. My eyes locked on the blue one's that I had missed more than I realized. I forgot my lines. I could taste his kiss.

He stayed, just staring into my eyes. Waiting for my reaction I guess.
I couldn't stop myself, I leaned forward and kissed him deeply, pouring my soul wrenching, desperate need for him into that first kiss.

"Spike?" I questioned.

"It's me pet." He smiled his cocky smile at me.

"Is this real? Are you re" I " I asked tears rolling down my cheeks. "Did I save you?"

"Don't cry pet. I missed you so much..." He gently wiped the tears from my face. "You saved me every bloody night. In my dreams." He entwined his fingers in my hair and pulled me in for a kiss.

I felt like the missing piece of me...the only piece that truly fit had been returned to me.

I wrapped my arms around him and crawled into his lap. I melted against him.

I could feel myself getting wet, from his kiss or the fact that he was here with his arms around me I don't know, and couldn't bring myself to leave his lap. I turned my face up to his to look into his eyes.

I saw his love for me, His enormous capacity to make me feel. I watched him watch me.

He leaned down and brushed my lips softly with his cool ones once again. Tentatively, as if he was unsure if he should, unsure if I wanted him. Silly vampire. He's the only thing I really wanted.

I shifted my position a little, I could feel his hardness pressed into me and I wanted him. I had never wanted anything as much as I wanted him at that moment.

Explanations could wait. I wanted to show him how much I meant what I said under that high school six months ago, and how much more I meant it now, now that he was here in my arms.

I didn't ever again want him to think that I didn't want him wholly and completely from that moment on.

I ran my fingers over his chest and he just watched me. I lifted myself up a little and pulled my T-shirt up over my head.

He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me against him. "Buffy..." He breathed. Reverently. Worshipfully. I missed that so much.

The way he said my name as if I was the only thing that mattered to him.

He ran his tongue over my collar bone. I shivered. I gripped the back of his head and pulled his lipsminemine. I kissed him deeply, longingly, I poured all of my feelings into kissing him.

I could feel his tongue entering my mouth and I rubbed my center against him. He growled softly. I knew he could smell me. My arousal. Hell I could smell it.

I left his lap only to remove my panties. He watched with hungry eyes as I slid the garment down my legs. I stood before him naked. Waiting.

"Why don't you take those off?" I asked indicating his pants.

He stood before me and god he moved fast. His pants were off and I was pulled into his arms before I knew what happened.

Spike picked me up and laid me gently on the bed. His eyes traveled the length of my body.

I spread my thighs slightly in invitation. Spike knelt between my legs, and placed his hardness at my center.

He slid in slowly. I could feel every inch of him, filling me up stretching me, making me feel.

It was like the first time all over again. But then with Spike, every time felt like the first time.

He thrust slowly against me. I could feel it. I was going to come. "Oh Spike." I screamed as I felt the powerful waves overtaking me. I could feel him thrusting harder. Faster. He knew what I liked.

Spike leaned down and kissed me. Softly. Tenderly.

"I love you." He whispered.

"Spike I love you so much." I whispered back.

His eyes rolled back and he thrust again. I knew he was getting close. I knew what he liked too. "I missed you so much. Thought about you every day. Missed being in your arms." I whispered into his ear.

Spike growled my name softly a he reached completion.

He rolled over on to his back and pulled me half on top of him. Our legs entwined arms around each other. For the first time in a long time I was content.

"How did it happen?" I asked, my head resting on his shoulder.

"Don't know." He shrugged holding me tighter. "Doesn't matter does it?" he asked.

"Nope. Not a lick." I said bringing a smile to his face at my use of his words.

"When did...how long were you...?" I questioned. He knew what I meant. I couldn't say that word to him. It might undo the magic and take him away again. I couldn't bear that.

I realize that that's probably why he couldn't say it to me either. When they brought me back.

"Four days after you left." He murmured closing his eyes.

"What? Spike that was almost six months ago... Why didn't you...?"
I could feel the tears forming.

"I wanted to Buffy, believe me I wanted to...but your former said you moved on, and If I really loved you I'd just let you live your life..." He sighed. "I tried to..."

"Angel...I should have known." I sad angrily.

"Now pet...he was just trying to pro"

"Don't. Don't you dare try to tell me it was for the best Spike." I fumed. "He always says what he's doing is in my best interest but he didn't call me. Not once to see how I was. Six months!"

Spike ran his fingers down my arm, a calming gesture I know. But really how could I stay mad. Spike was here. Really here. Next to me. Naked.

I slid my hand across the flatness of his stomach and down into his curls. I gently grasped him in my hand and stroked. I squeezed him and pumped faster.

I crawled under the blanket and took him in my mouth.

He gasped and pumped his hips. I had never done this for him before. The soft growls of pleasure and breathy moans coming from him told me I was doing it right.

"You like that?" I asked.

"Oh yeah...ummmm more please..." He begged thrusting faster into my hand.

I took him in my mouth again and sucked. I could feel him getting close. I grasped his sac gently.

Spike convulsed and spasmed. He shot his cold seed into my mouth and I swallowed every last drop.

I crawled up his body and kissed him. I could feel him growing already. I felt the same way. Insatiable. Raw hunger to feel him inside me. I needed him so much.

I reached down and guided him to my slick entrance. He thrust up into me gently. Slowly.

We enjoyed each other's bodies. Licking kissing and caressing. Feeling a swell of emotion I had never felt before. I was building towards an earth shattering orgasm. I could feel it building.

Spike's thrusts were getting more frantic. More urgent. He growled positively.

That sent me crashing over the edge.

I could feel my milky folds clenching and unclenching around his pulsing shaft.

Spike was panting when he let his seed go. He screamed. And vamped. I reached out and ran my finger tips over his wrinklies.

Spike purred and looked into my eyes. I could feel him softening inside me. I ran my finger down his cheek and let my fingertip graze one of his fangs.

Spike sucked my finger into his mouth, savoring the few drops of blood. It felt so erotic. I could feel him growing inside me again.

Spike flipped me over and thrust wildly. I screamed as wave after wave crashed into me, stealing my breath, my mind.

All I thought and felt centered around him. Inside me, loving me, making love to me.

He slowed his pace and looked into my eyes. "Oh...Buffy...Luv, it's never been this way for me. I need you." He whispered.

"I need you more." I cried out. "Oh Spike...."

He made love to me tenderly. It was so...perfect. He made me hunger for him, for his touch, his kiss. His love.

Now that I had him I'd never let him go again.
~~~~~`

We fell asleep in each other's arms.

I can't tell you how amazing it felt to wake up in the arms of someone you are in love with. It wlissliss.

I looked into his already open eyes. "Morning Luv." He smiled. It lit up his eyes. I've never seen him smile like that.

"Morning." I smiled back. "You look like the cat that ate the canary."

"No...I'm the cat that's gonna eat the canary." He growled seductively already halfway under the blanket.

He licked down my stomach. I felt the wetness between my legs as he thrust two fingers inside me.

My hips bucked against his mouth as he sucked in my most sensitive spot.

He growled in pleasure as my hips thrust in time with his sucking and I felt my release gushing into his mouth.

Spike crawled up my body and kissed my lips. His tongue darting out to lick my bottom lip. I sighed into his mouth opening mine to allow his tongue in. Spike broke the kiss and pulled back.

The intensity in his gaze when his eyes locked with mine blew me away.

"What do you want Buffy?" He questioned.

"You." I said simply. "Always."
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