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Once and Again	By : Zarrah Category: AtS AU/AR > Het - Male/Female Views: 2089 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter Twenty-Six: Always

Ravyn stood stunned, watching as Spike walked over to her. She never expected to see him again and now that she was she wasn't sure she wanted to. Her stomach was turning flips, thinking he was probably just there to let her have it for ruining everything. She leaned back against the railing and looked towards the floor. She was having a hard time looking at him. As much as she had missed him, seeing him again hurt more than she ever dreamed possible.
Spike stopped a little ways in front of her. Seeing her look towards the floor wasn't what he was expecting. He could still see the pain in her eyes and he mentally slapped himself for being so arrogant as to think she'd just jump back into his arms like he'd just been on vacation.
Taking a deep breath, Spike let it out slowly, trying to calm the uneasy feeling he was getting all of a sudden. "How are you?" he asked quietly, taking a step closer to her.
"Fine" Ravyn answered him as she looked up.
Spike just stared at her. She looked different. Her skin was pale and her hair wasn't the shiny dark brown it always was. It was dull and lifeless. She looked.old and he knew he was to blame.
Ravyn never wanted to run so fast in her life. She couldn't stand the thoughts of having him accuse her of things that never happened again. Of all the things that had happened, him not believing her was what hurt the most. She looked over towards the door and wondered briefly if just leaving would be less painful than hearing his `imagined' version of things.
"I miss you."
Ravyn looked back over at Spike when his soft spoken words reached her. That wasn't what she was expecting.
"Ravyn, I'm an idiot, I know I am." Spike said quietly as he looked at her. "I've had a lot of time to think about what happened and I know I should have trusted `you' and not him, but Angelus has always made me crazy and probably always will."
Ravyn watched him as he spoke to her. It felt like she hadn't seen him in years. He still had a few light bruises on his face and his eyes held as much pain as she knew hers did, and the fact that he seemed to be trying to apologize to her had her a little thrown.
Spike's nerves were on edge. He had practiced this speech a thousand times but the look on her face was making it hard for him to find his words. "I love you Ravyn. I know you would never do anything to hurt me and I should have believed you. I'm sorry." Spike said softly. "I know that doesn't even come close to making up for what I did but...."
Ravyn felt her eyes tear up as she watched his do the same before he looked away. She just looked at him as he stood there staring at the floor and she knew he was struggling with what he was trying to say.
"Excuse me....Miss Ravyn." Phillip said quietly from the door.
Ravyn and Spike both looked over towards Phillip as he spoke.
Phillip gave them both a small smile as he looked at them. "Miss Ravyn, it's almost time. We must leave soon."
Ravyn nodded her head at him before he smiled at her and turned to leave. She waited until he went back inside before she looked back over at Spike.
"Going somewhere?" Spike asked as he looked at her.
"Yeah....I'm going to New York."
"Oh." Spike said softly, fear instantly gripping him. "When are you coming back?"
Ravyn's eyes were stinging and her chest felt like someone had it in a tight hold as she looked at him. "I'm not." She answered him quietly, a few tears falling as she did.
Someone could have driven a stake through Spike's chest at that very moment and he didn't think he would have felt it. He stared at her as she looked at him, tears slowly falling down her cheeks and he knew he had messed up.
He couldn't hold back his own tears he had been struggling with as they slipped from his eyes. She was leaving him. The one person in the world he always thought would be there no matter what, was leaving. "You can't go." He told her quietly. "You belong to me, my mate....I won't let you." He said, desperate to hold onto her.
"No....I'm not." Ravyn said, the words as painful to say as they were to feel.
Spike looked at her as she stood up straight and stared at him.
"I'm not your mate Spike. I never have been." She told him, the look on his face breaking her heart.
"You can't break a claim Ravyn, no matter what happens."
"I'm not breaking the claim Spike. There never was one there to begin with."
Spike stared at her, not believing she would deny his claim on her.
"The bonding claim has to be made together....we didn't do that." She told him, her voice shaky with emotion. "We were never mated."
"Who told you that?" Spike asked, not believing her.
"Angelus."
Ravyn watched as his eyes hardened and a little smile played on his lips.
"Angelus would have told you anything luv."
"Yeah, I'm sure he would. But he also told me the truth. We don't share a bond Spike. If we did, you would have known I was alive for all those years."
Spike thought back to when they first found Ravyn, remembering how he had asked himself how she could have been alive all that time and him not know it. He stared at her, glancing at her neck where his bite mark was. He saw Angelus' mark, covering his and knew....if she were `really' his, Angelus would never have been able to touch her.
Ravyn sighed lightly as she looked back down at the floor. Knowing she wasn't his had been as painful for her to accept as it seemed it was for him.
"Miss Ravyn." Phillip said as he once again stood at the door. "We will miss our train if we don't leave."
"Okay Phillip." Ravyn said as she looked over at him.
Ravyn looked over at Spike. He had a look of total confusion on his face. This wasn't the way it was suppose to have been. "Well, I guess I better go." She said quietly after he just stood there staring at her.
"So that's it then....you're just going to up and leave me?" Spike asked her, not believing this was happening.
"It's what you did." Ravyn said, instantly regretting her words at the look on Spike's face. She sighed heavily and looked down, unable to see the pain on his face that she had caused. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean that to sound so...."
"S'alright luv....it's the truth." Spike said quietly as pain gripped his chest knowing that's exactly what he had done.
Ravyn looked up at him before giving him a sad smile. "Take care of yourself Spike." She told him before she turned to leave, her heart breaking as she did.
Spike felt his whole world fall down around him as he watched her walk away. Not only had he lost his mate, but he was losing the only woman who ever loved him with no questions asked. He never had to prove anything to her or pretend to be something he wasn't. She loved him completely, just for being himself.
"Please don't go." Spike whispered to her as new tears filled his eyes.
Ravyn stopped when she heard him. She was already in tears thinking he was just going to let her leave and not try to stop her. She slowly turned to face him, hope finally returning to her.
Spike walked over to her and lifted his hand, holding her hair away from her face as he looked at her. "I don't want you to leave. I love you Ravyn, I'm miserable without you." He said softly as he laid his forehead against hers. "I'm so sorry, Please don't go."
Ravyn's heart was rejoicing and breaking at the same time as Spike started to softly cry.
"I'll do anything for you....give you anything you want." He whispered to her through his tears as he wrapped his other arm around her, holding her to him. "Please don't leave me. I'm sorry."
Ravyn started to cry as Spike placed small kisses on her cheek. Her tears coming faster as did his. She slid her arms inside his jacket, wrapping them around his waist, hugging him to her tightly as she buried her face in his neck, crying hard as his hold on her tightened. "All I've ever wanted was you Spike." She said, her words barely even understandable. "You're all I need."
Phillip watched them from the door, a big smile on his face. He knew Spike needed a little incentive to hurry things along. Their train didn't leave for another three hours and he knew Spike needed the extra motivation to get everything he needed to tell her out.
Of all the things Phillip ever wanted for Ravyn, her happiness was his main concern and he knew that Spike was what made her happy. He smiled as he looked at them, glad she was finally getting what her heart desired.
Spike held onto Ravyn, crying softly as he did. He would have given her anything in the world and just knowing that `he' was all she wanted warmed him like nothing ever had.
"I love you Spike." Ravyn whispered as she laid her head on his shoulder.
Spike sighed, relieved he hadn't destroyed the one thing he knew he'd never be able live without "I love you too Ravyn and I'll never let you down again. I promise" he told her softly.
Rasmilsmiled as she closed her eyes. She knew he meant it, she could hear it in his voice.
Spike held her as he nuzzled his face in her shoulder. He inhaled deeply, taking in the scent he had tried to rid his house of. He sighed in relief, before placing a small kiss on her neck.
"I brought you something." Spike said quietly as he lifted his head.
Ravyn straightened and pulled herself away from him as he reached inside his jacket. She smiled as he pulled out a `slightly smashed' purple rose.
"I didn't forget your mushies." He said with a smile as he handed Ravyn the rose. "I didn't have time to write you one of those silly poems you like though.um, been kinda busy fixing the house." He said quietly.
"I don't need a...." Ravyn started to say smiling, but stopped as she saw the look on his face. "What'd you do to the house?" she asked as he started to fidget a little.
Spike looked away briefly before looking back over at her. "Well...um...I got a bit snockered and did a little remodeling."
"Remodeling?" she asked, giving him a wide-eyed look.
"Yeah....but I fixed it all, even replaced the furniture." He said with a smile.
Ravyn could only imagine what his `remodeling' looked like. She had seen him pissed enough to know he liked to throw things. He was worse than a three year old at times. She smiled as she looked up at him. "Well, it's your stuff anyway; I guess you can break it if you like."
"Our stuff." Spike said as he smiled back at her. "Well, except for the telly, that's mine."
Ravyn giggled slightly as she shook her head at him. Spike smiled big as he looked at her. The `sparkle' was back in her eyes again and he knew everything was going to be okay.
"Come `ere." He said softly as he reached an arm out and grabbed her around the waist.
Ravyn smiled and wrapped her arms around his neck as he pulled her to him. She leaned into him, as he tightened his arms around her.
Spike sighed lightly as he held her, the feel of her against him again better than anything he could think of at the moment. He leaned down, lightly brushing his lips against hers. "I've missed you." He whispered against her lips before capturing them again with his own.
Ravyn closed her eyes and held onto him tighter as his lips glided against hers. She extended her tongue, licking his lips, tasting him as his mouth opened.
Spike brought his hand up, holding the back of her head as he deepened the kiss. He slipped his tongue inside her mouth, caressing hers slowly, savoring the taste of her. Ravyn moaned into his mouth as she pressed her body against him. She felt light headed as the kiss intensified and Spike's hands roamed oher her body as he was rapidly kissing her breathless.
Ravyn was panting for air as she pulled away from his lips, only to have them captured again by his hungry kisses. Her whole body was tingling as Spike was devouring her, kissing her with more passion than she had ever felt. She was moaning, her mind clouding over in a lust induced trance as she once again pulled herself away from his mouth, gasping for un-needed air as her body reacted to him.
Spike kissed a line down her jaw, making his way to her neck, licking and lightly biting her flesh as his desire for her rose. He could smell her arousal, the scent making it hard for his lust induced brain to focus as he pulled her tightly against him, pressing his now aching erection into her.
They were both losing themselves in the taste and feel of the other as a month long separation was feeding their need for the other. "I've missed you so much." He whispered to her as he gripped her body tightly in his hands, tasting the flesh of her neck
"Spike" Ravyn whispered as her body burned for him. She was breathing heavily as she ran her fingers through his hair, holding him to her neck. Her skin felt like it was on fire as he sucked at her flesh. The throbbing sensations between her legs had her pushing herself against him, needing to be closer to him.
Spike sucked in a deep breath, quickly pulling away from her and taking a step back as he panted for air.
Ravyn stared at him with lust filled eyes, her own breath coming in shallow pants. "What?" she asked confused at the sudden loss of body contact.
"Well" Spike said breathing heavily as he looked at her. "We can either go home and continue this for the next three days or I can shag you unconscious right here on the poofs back porch..your choice."
Ravyn grinned big as she looked at him. "Three days?" she asked him, leaning her head to the side as she did.
Spike smiled before taking a step closer to her. "Been a bleeding month, you'll be lucky to walk by the time I'm through with you." He said softly as his hands once again traced over her curves.
"You sure about that grandpa?" she asked, still smiling as she leaned up, kissing him lightly.
"Positive."
"Well what are we waiting on?"
Spike's smile widened as he looked at her. "So you forgive me then?"
"I forgave you the minute you did it." Ravyn said softly as she looked at him.
Spike leaned down, placing a small kiss on her lips. "I love you" he said softly as he looked at her.
"I know you do." Ravyn told him with a smile. "I love you too."
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"Well I haven't heard any yelling or screaming, so it has to be going okay." Dawn said quietly as everyone sat around the lounge.
"Unless she's killed him already." Jesse mumbled with his mouth full, digging into a bag of chips as he did.
Dawn rolled her eyes at him and shook her head. "And what makes you think she'd do that?"
"What.I know how you women are.a guy does you wrong, the first thing you do is get your revenge."
"And how would you know how a woman is.you haven't had one in what.four years?" Blake asked chuckling at his friend.
"I'll have you know I know lots of things about women." Jesse said trying to defend himself.
"Yeah, like how `not' to impress one." Blake said, his chuckles growing into a light laughter.
Angel could hear the gang's laughter from his room. He had sat in there all evening, not able to watch Ravyn leave. He now wished he had stayed out front with the others as he had sat and listened to every word of Ravyn and Spike's conversation. He was glad was was happy and he knew she was, he could hear it in her voice. He smiled sadly as he looked towards the window, watching their shadows move around on the porch.~
*Well Spike, maybe now you'll know what you have* he thought to himself as he heard them walk across the porch and come inside.~ He sighed lightly before sitting back in his chair, a tiny smile on his fknowknowing that even after all that he had done to Ravyn..she still considered him her friend.
~*~*~*
"Patty? Isn't she the one that snorted like a pig when she laughed?" Blake asked as he and Jesse were still discussing Jesse's ability with attracting the opposite sex.
Spike and Ravyn crept quietly through the lobby, listening to the others conversation and trying to be quiet as they were both eager to get home and not having to stop and make small talk in the process.
"Where are you two sneaking off to?" Dylan asked as he came down the stairs.
"Bloody Hell." Spike swore quietly as he reached for the front door.
"Dawn.Spike and Ravyn are in here." Dylan said loudly with a huge grin on his face.
Spike turned his head, glaring hard at Dylan as they heard Dawn running.
"Hey guys." Dawn said, her smile bright enough to light the darkest night. "Sneaking out?"
"Trying to." Spike said with a frustrated sigh as he looked at her.
Dawn grinned as she looked at them before walking over to Dylan, wrapping her arm around him. She leaned her head against his shoulder and looked happily over at Ravyn. She was smiling; something Dawn hadn't seen her do in over three weeks.
"So, you were just going to leave and not even say goodbye?" Dawn said, holding in her giggles at Spike's face. She knew he was ready to get Ravyn alone and she figured she might as well make him wait it out as long as she could.
Spike looked at Dawn and grinned. He c tel tell by the look in her eye she was deliberately trying to hold them up. "Yeah, that's exactly what we were doing."
"That's just mean." Dawn told him, her small giggles starting.
"Yeah well, never claimed to be nice, so if you don't mind." Spike said as he turned back to the door, "we're leaving." He added as he grabbed Ravyn's hand and drug her out the door.
Dawn and Dylan both burst out laughing as Spike slammed the door shut. They looked at each other and shook their heads before turning, heading for the lounge.
~*~*
Ravyn climbed onto the motorcycle after Spike did, sliding as close to him as she could. She knew they still had things to talk about, but for the moment she was just happy to be with him again.
Spike started the engine and turnes hes head, looking back at Ravyn over his shoulder. He smiled at her before leaning back, giving her a small kiss. He reached behind him, grabbing her arms and wrapped them around him. "Hold on." He told her before he turned back around, and pulled the bike away from the curb.
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"So you think they'll work everything out?" Blake asked as Dawn and Dylan entered the lounge.
"Yeah.I do." Dawn said as she sat back down. "I just hate it took him so long to figure out what he should have already known."
"I still can't believe Ravyn would go with him." Jesse said, munching on a bag of cookies.
"Why's that?" Dawn asked, making a face at his none stop food binge.
"Well, I mean the guy staked her.how does someone get over that? I know I couldn't."
"Because she loves him." Dawn told him. "And beside, I don't even think he knows he did it and I'm sure Ravyn's not going to say anythin

"Hopefully Spike won't make the same mistake twice." Blake said, also making a face at Jesse as he munched loudly. "He came real close to blowing it this time."

"Ye "Yeah, I think he knows that too." Dawn said smiling slightly. "He won't make that mistake again.I'll assure you that."
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Ravyn had her head resting on Spike's back as the city lights grew dim behind them. She had a little smile on her face, happy for the first time eekseeks. She couldn't believe how close they came to losing everything. She knew Spike loved her and that alone was worth everything to her.
She inhaled deeply, smelling the ocean as they neared it and she could smell Spike. His scent was sending chills up her spine in anticipation of things to come. She wrapped her arms around him tighter, the slick material of his button down shirt cooling her skin as she tried to get as close to him as she could. She had missed him terribly and the feel of him again was causing her need for him to overwhelm her.
Ravyn slid her hands down, sliding them up under Spike's shirt. Her smiled increased as she ran her hands up over his stomach, feeling his muscles contract as she did. She loved the way he felt, his skin was smooth and rippled in all the right places. He was the most beautiful man she had ever seen, and he was all hers.
Spike was having a hard time focusing on the road as Ravyn's hands lazily played over the contours of his chest and stomach. He had to slow the bike down a little as she scrapped her nails lightly up and down his skin. He moaned softly as she ran a hand down the front of his jeans, rubbing at him. She was lightly squeezing him, causing a fast growing bulge in his pants.
Ravyn's smile was firmly planted as she felt him harden under her hand. Knowing she could affect him with just a touch thrilled her. Craning her neck, she reached up, placing a kiss on the back of his neck, giving it a small lick as she did. She could feel his chest rising quickly under her hand as his breathing increased at her ministrations.
Bringing her hand up, Ravyn grabbed Spike's belt, pulling it open. She heard him take a sharp intake of breath as her hand unbuttoned and slowly unzipped his pants. She leaned back slightly as he did and she closed her eyes as she slipped her hand inside his jeans, finding her prize.
Spike was barely even able to keep the bike on the road as Ravyn pulled him free and slowly stroked him. He couldn't believe she had been so bold as to try this while they were moving. Having sex on a crowded dance floor had excited him beyond belief; this.this was mind blowing.
Ravyn slid her hand up and down Spike's shaft, circling the head with her thumb. She was surprised they were still going in a straight line as Spike's breathing was almost out of control. She still hand one hand up his shirt, lightly playing over his skin. She could feel the small rumbles in his chest as he was quietly growling. She smiled, wondering if he even knew where he was.
Spike's eyes were getting heavy and he searched the road, trying to figure out exactly where they were. His brain had had a mini melt down the second Ravyn had unzipped his pants and pulled him free. It was taking every ounce of strength he had to keep the bike on the road as she continued to massage him in her hand.
Ravyn grinned as Spike pulled the motorcycle off onto a small road. He drove around the barrier that blocked the dirt road and started up the narrow path towards a clearing she could see up ahead.
Spike made it up to the top of the hill, barely getting the bike stopped as Ravyn was still pumping him in her hand. He parked the bike, killing the engine and turned to her, roughly grabbing the back of her head and pulling her to him, crushing his mouth to hers. He turned his body, wrapping an arm around her waist,he bhe brought his other hand down, grabbing her leg and swinging her around in front of him, never breaking from her mouth.
Ravyn wrapped her arms around his neck, kissing him hard as Spike thrust his tongue in her mouth. He growled deep in his throat as he devoured her mouth, his hands squeezing at her breasts.
Ravyn grabbed his head with both hands, holding him to her as she sucked on his tongue, his small growls vibrating through her chest as he clung to her. She pulled back, gasping for air before grabbing the edge of his shirt, ripping it open and pulling it and his jacket down his arms before he grabbed the hem of her shirt.
Spike pulled her shirt up, pulling it over her head and throwing it to the ground. He snapped the clasp of her bra, ripping it from her before latching onto her breast, sucking greedily at her as he did. Ravyn arched her back, holding his head to her as his tongue ran circles around her erect nipple, sending electrical jolts straight to her sex.
Spike grabbed her other breast, squeezing it lightly, pinching at her nipple as he sucked and bit at the other one. Ravyn's breath was coming in shallow pants as her body burned. Spike pulled away from her breast, moving to the other one briefly before Ravyn grabbed his head, pulling him into another hard kiss. She moaned loudly into his mouth as he slid a hand between her legs, massaging her through the material of her je Rav Ravyn broke away from his mouth and looked at him, smiling slightly before their remaining clothes and shoes were discarded, thrown hastily away.
Spike grabbed Ravyn's legs, throwing them over his. He ran his hands down her legs and wrapped them around his waist. Bringing his hands back up the length of her legs, he grabbed her hips, lifting her up. Ravyn had one hand on his the side of his neck and reached down with her other hand, grabbing his shaft and positioning him at her opening before Spike slowly impaled her on him.
Ravyn and Spike both gasped for air as he filled her and Spike buried his face in her shoulder, her tight entrance squeezing him to the most blissful pain he had ever felt. They both sat still, calming themselves and their breathing. Spike finally lifted his head and looked up at her as she wrappedh arh arms around his neck.
Ravyn smiled as she looked at him. "You ready for a ride grandpa?" she asked him softly as she slowly rocked her hips against him.
Spike smiled up at her as he grabbed her hips, helping her along. "Show me what you got girl." He said, leaning up and once again capturing her lips as Ravyn rocked against him. He dug his fingers into her hips as her tongue entered his mouth. Ravyn clung to him as sparks flew through her body. She quickened her pace as his tongue danced eagerly with hers; a small growl coming from deep in her chest aike ike leaned back slightly, causing him to fill her completely.
Ravyn broke away from his mouth, gasping for air as the feel of him inside of her caused a small tingle to grow in her stomach. She threw her head back, resting her hands on his shoulders as he moved her hips faster.
Spike looked up, watching her. He loved looking at her as he made love to her. The expression on her face was as exciting as she was. She was biting her bottom lip and her eyes were clinched shut tightly. He smiled as she opened her mouth, darting her tongue out, licking her lip before she lifted her head and looked down at him.
Ravyn locked eyes with him as she brought a hand up, running it through his hair. She held onto him, never breaking her gaze on him. Spike could see everything in her eyes as he looked at her. He was breathing heavily as she tightened her muscles around him and leaned down, laying her forehead against his. "I love you Spike" she said breathlessly, never taking her eyes off of him.
Spike leaned up, kissing her hard, wrapping both arms around her. He moaned as she squeezed her muscles around him again, releasing it then tightening up again. Ravyn felt herself nearing climax and rocked against him faster, using her legs around his waist to pull herself. She had both hands in his hair, pulling him to her. Spike extended his fangs, cutting her tongue and growling softly as her blood filled his mouth.
Ravyn panted for air between his fevered kisses. Her eyes were clamped shut as she felt the small tingles that had been coursing through her body steadily grow. She pulled back away from him slightly, opening her eyes and looking into his face. "Make me yours Spike." She whispered to him between small kisses.
She watched him as his facial features changed, revealing his demon. She smiled before letting her own human mask also slip away. Spike raised his hand, moving her hair away from her neck as he felt himself nearing release as Ravyn's muscles tightened around his shaft. He watched her eyes as they got heavy and knew she was close.
Pulling her to him, Spike kissed her neck, licking her skin as he found his mark. Ravyn's body was trembling, on the verge of climax as Spike licked her neck. She heard him growl and she screamed as she felt his fangs penetrate her skin, her orgasm hitting her hard. She rocked faster against him before sinking her own fangs into his neck, holding him to her.
Spike sucked greedily at her blood, jerking her body to him. Ravyn was screaming against his neck, her muscles clamping him tightly, causing him to fall over the edge quickly as she milked him.
Ravyn felt tears stinging her eyes as Spike's growls vibrated through her body. She felt warm, her whole body trembling as she drank. Spike's blood filled her mouth and she sank her fangs in deeper, the taste of it becomiweetweet.
Spike's soft growls grew as Ravyn continued to rock against him. He grabbed her shoulders, biting down harder as the taste of her blood changed. It was sweet, unlike anything he had ever tasted before. His body felt warm and he was thrusting his hips up into her best he could as he felt himself nearing climax again.
Ravyn moaned against Spike's neck, drinking greedily as the sweet taste of him ran down her throat. She knew she needed to pull away, that she was taking too much but she couldn't. She wanted it all, every drop. It was unlike anything she had ever tasted before, the taste intoxicating her. She growled softly as the fire in her grew steadily, rising to a peak before she once again exploded around him.
Spike grabbed her hips as he felt her muscles squeezed him. He thrust up into her as she came again, him following right behind her.
They both pulled and jerked on the other, neither one ever breaking their hold on the others neck as pleasure coursed through their bodies. As they came down from their high, their bodies stilled. Ravyn and Spike continued to drink from the other, neither one ready to give up the taste. Ravyn had her hands in Spike's hair, massaging his scalp as she held him to her. Her body felt warm for the first time in over sixty years as Spike ran his hands up and down her back.
Spike clamped his eyes shut tight as the feelings he was having were beginning to overwhelm him. His whole body felt warm as he clung onto Ravyn. He had never drank from anyone this long and briefly wondered how they both hadn't passed out yet until he realized..their blood was circulating between each other. That's why the taste of it had changed. Their blood was mixing.
Ravyn and Spike both pulled away from the other, ripping the skin on each others neck as they both felt a `wave' rush through them. "Mine" they both growled softly as they were both gasping for air as they lay their foreheads together.
Spike leaned up, kissing Ravyn softly. He extended his tongue, darting inside her mouth as hers did the same. Their tongues slowly caressed the other, as another `wave' washed over them. Ravyn pulled away from him, tears instantly forming. "I can feel you." She whispered against his lips as she started to softly cry.
Spike's own eyes tiered up as he felt everything Ravyn felt for him run through his entire body. It was if he was inside of her, feeling every emotion she was feeling. He had no idea how much love she carried for him until that moment.~ He felt it.as did she. "I love you Ravyn." Spike whispered to her, wanting her to know how much she meant to him.
Ravyn giggled lightly through her tears. "I know.I can fell it." She said as she opened her eyes to look at him.
They both sat, staring at the other, emotions running between them until they were both in tears. Spike brought his hand up, running it over her head as he looked at her. He smiled at her before placing a small kiss on her lips and wrapping his arms tightly around her.
Ravyn laid her head on his shoulder, her eyes closing as ran his hand up and down her back. There would never be any doubt in her mind what he felt for her; as she could feel it, they were one, bonded for life. Mates.
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"Sun'll be up soon." Ravyn said quietly, as her and Spike were still sitting on the motorcycle, intimately joined.
"I know." Spike said as he still held her.
Neither one knew how long they had been sitting there holding each other as they passed their emotions back and forth to the other. They both felt more at peace than they had in a long time and were content to just sit there and be close to the other.
Ravyn sighed lightly before lifting her head up. She looked around, finally noticing their surroundings. "Did you even look before you parked the bike?" she asked as she looked behind her.
"Not really, why?" Spike asked as he moved his head to the side to see what Ravyn was looking at. "Bloody Hell!" Spike said loudly as he looked over the cliffs edge they were parked at.
"Yeah, I'd say so." Ravyn said as she also looked over the cliff. "I'm surprised we didn't go over the edge the way we were rocking this thing."
Spike smiled as he thought about it. "Well, if I'm gonna buy it, might as well be while I'm shagging you."
Ravyn giggled before she turned back around to face him. "Like I wanna have sex with a big pile of dust."
Spike smiled and leaned his head to the side as he looked at her. He lifted his hand, pushing her hair over her shoulder and looked at the bite mark he had given her.directly over Angelus' mark. His smile increased as he saw how big it was. No mistaking she was his now and every creature that saw her from now on would know it.
"Did you scar me for life?" Ravyn asked him as she saw him admiring his mark.
"Damn right I did!" Spike said with a smile as he ran a finger over it.
Ravyn giggled and shook her head as she looked am. Hm. Her smile faded when she saw his do the same and she felt a panic rush through her. "What?" she asked as she looked at him.
Spike was staring at Ravyn's chest. He ran his hand slowly down to the scar over her heart and looked up at her, fear in his eyes. "What happened?"
Ravyn closed her eyes briefly before opening them back up. "It's nothing." She said, smiling best she could.
"Doesn't look like nng. ng. Looks like you got staked." He said quietly as he looked at her. Spike just stared at her as she sat there. He could tell by the look in her eyes and from the emotion she was feeling that it was more than `nothing'. "When did this happen?"
"Spike, it doesn't matter. I'm fine." She said, knowing now he definitely didn't remember doing it.
Spike looked back down at her chest, running his finger over the slightly raised scar. It was fresh, still not completely healed. He knew it had been done recently and wondered why no one had called him. "Oh my god." He whispered before he looked up at her with wide, terror filled eyes.
Ravyn felt it the instant he realized and wrapped her arms around his neck. "I'm fine, no damage done." She said as Spike starting gasping for air.
"I.I did that.I staked you." Spike said as he tried to catch his breath as he remembered bringing the stake down on Angelus, only to have Ravyn push him out of the way.
"I'm okay Spike." Ravyn said, tears coming to her eyes as she felt his despair. "I love you." She told him as he wrapped his arms around her and buried his head in her shoulder and started to cry.
Spike held her tightly, fear ripping through him as the reality that he had almost killed her washed over him. He cried hard, squeezing her as she tried to calm him.
Ravyn ran her hand over his head, kissing his neck as he softly chanted `I'm sorry' over and over again. He was crying harder than she had ever heard him do before and the grip he had her in was becoming painful. She held him, closing her eyes and giving him time to deal with it. She never intended on him finding out, knowing what his reaction would be when he did.
Spike saw the whole thing play out behind his closed eyelids. He could see the terrified look on her face as he held her by the throat; hear her barely audible words as she gasped for air while the stake he had shoved into her chest poured blood he now remembered seeing. How could he have staked her and not even realized it when he did? And why was she even here with him, knowing that he had?
Raising his head, he looked at her when she lifted her head. Ravyn smiled down at him, wiping his tears away before placing a small kiss on his lips. "I love you Spike." She told him softly as she looked at him. "I know you would never hurt me, its okay."
Spike sighed lightly as he looked at her. How could she ever forgive him for that? "I don't deserve you." He said quietly, smiling slightly as he felt her love for him wash through him.
"I know." Ravyn said with a smile, "Luckily for you you're so incredibly sexy I just can't help myself."
Spike smiled bigger as he looked at her. No matter how bad he felt, she always made it better. "You think I'm sexy `eh?"
"Damn straight." Ravyn said grinning. "Gorgeous naked vampire on a motorcycle.how sexy is that?"
Spike chuckled at her as she leaned down kissing him softly.
"How about.we find our clothes, get off this cliff and go home and start this three day sexapaluza you promised me?" Ravyn said with a grin.
Spike's chuckles increased as she wiggled her eyebrows at him. "You're insane, you know that?"
"Yeah, insanely crazy about you." She said softly as she looked at him. "I love you Spike.Always."
Spike sighed lightly as he looked up at her. No matter how many jokes she wanted to make about it, he knew he didn't deserve her love, but was glad he had it. "I love you too kitten...Always."
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